complicated

2007-12-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

waiting for daddy to be back from overseas..

I'm feeling so lazy now.
hehehe..

Project Judging done!!!
Very nervous. But lucky, everything went well.

It's time for a break. This whole month, I didn't sleep properly. Nv get 8 hours of sleep everyday.

Now, I'm having flu. Sigh. so xin ku.. can't breathe properly because of blocked nose.

I'm having a hard time trying to persuade my mummy.. Sigh..
Darling, help me!!!!!!

So random today.

2007-11-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

Submitted my MP report today!

I can finally have a good rest!

then my darling won't have to tolerate me everyday.. I know you haven been suffering with me.

I have been complaining to him about this and that.. ok, I know my temper is not good.. I can't control my temper at all. BUT, it's really getting on my nerves!!

well well, it's over now. and I'm back to be a little happy girl.

I was talking to my darling that day. And i realised something. I ruined my own surprise. ARGH!!! is either i ruin it or he accidentally tell me about it..
Sigh, who ask me to be so clever???
hahahaha.. suddenly feels so thick skin..

Photos photos.. Dinner at Sushi Tei with my sis, BIL and little monster!!

My mummy's taking photo for me.

I'm the big boss of the family. But ah yi says that I'm the little monster.

My mummy and me!!

What's that??

I'm looking at you!!

2007-11-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

Let the photos do the talking.

We're great cooks.

=)

Christmas's coming!

I need your love..

I can see shi hui looking at me. LOL.

I want to poo poo... where's my StinkyShit? hehehee...

I'm feeling lazy...

I like this pic!

Nice huh??

We're seriously great cooks.. Trust us..

I'm yellow when I'm sober. Red when drunk.

Ok, I know that my mouth isn't as big as yours.

La la la la~

Love me. Hug me.

Dinner time!

darling, please update your blog... Don't be lazy..

2007-11-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

Recently, someone asked me, " Do you regret being with that person?"

I thought for a second.

"No, I don't regret."

I believed that it was planned for me to know that person.
It made me learnt. I really learnt from the hard way. Though it was a path that was tough to walk, I'm glad that my friends were by my side.

Especially Baldwin Chia. Even though he was far away, he was always by my side. Listening to me ranting non-stop. Never once did he stop caring for me.

I remebered he told me something before he went to UK.
"When you look back next time, you will laugh at yourself. For being like that, crying for such a person."

Now, when I look back.. Yes, I did laugh at myself. But I realise something else. Something that's even more meaningful.

Life's wonderful..
And beautiful too...
=)

2007-11-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

My wedding will be held here next time! MUHAHAHAHA.

Our masks..

As usual, Marianne always the extra one.. Hahaha..

Why do I say that?
Because of what we wore and take.

Jeslyn: White-coloured blouse, white-coloured sandals, white-coloured phone.
Vivian: White-coloured shirt, white-coloured heels, white-coloured phone.
Marianne: Black-coloured shirt, black-coloured pumps, grey-coloured phone.

Hahaha.. Never once did Marianne and I wore the same colours. She was complaining yesterday about it. Hahaha..

Oh ya, she was so scary yesterday. Her appetite increased. Can you imagine the amount of food she ate yesterday?? She was eating non-stop.
Let's see what we ate.
Both of us ordered Famous Star combo each.
I couldn't finish my meal at all. Still left about 1/4 of the burger. My stomach felt like it going to burst anytime.
This girl here, named Freeman Marianne, finished every single food on the tray and she went to re-fill her drink.
Afterwhich, she bought New Zealand ice cream.. 3 scoops of ice cream. She finished everything up.

It used to be me who can eat so much. Now, it's Marianne. Weird huh??

Suppose to meet Nic and Roy. But in the end, we couldn't join them for drinks.
We're so sorry about it.
We'll meet up next time, ok???

I cooked for my sister and BIL today.
Pasta.
Mummy was besides me, helping me with the cooking.
I prefer to cook by myself.
Mummy and daddy always like that one.
They worry that I will burn the whole kitchen down.
hahaha..

A lot of things have been happening lately.
It's really tiring me out.
Sometimes, I really wish to take a break. But I can't.
Things will always happen whenever I take a break.
Sigh.
I just have to go on.

Had a talk with June today.
Well, we'll see how things go from here.

And I'm not going to be a nice person anymore. Miss nice Jeslyn that won't scold people.
Work is work.
Friend is friend.
I don't care whether you are a high ego person, or someone that can't take comments. I don't bother.
Not worth my time and energy.
I'm saying whatever I think is right from now on.
Nothing's going to work out by giving in to you.
Nothing's going to work out if I'm the only one making the effort.

I'm doing almost everything, but are you???

2007-10-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I updated my blog.

School started. But stress is building up everyday.
Major Project report.
Deadlines. Almost every week.
By 28 Nov, I have to pass up my full major report.
Fast right?
I guess everyone is stress about this.

But after 28 nov, we can rest for awhile.
After that, it's term test time!

It's going to be a busy month for me and everyone.

Caught a movie with Marianne today.
Nanny's Diaries.
Nice show.
Window shopping after that. Didn't see much also.
And of coz, chit-chatting.
About guys, relationships and stuffs.

shall stop here for today.
will update again.

2007-09-24T20:41:00.000+08:00

Right now, I'm having a conversation with my good friend. And she likes to pull me into the situation one.

Friend: I don't understand why les always go for straight girls.

Me: Well, you are one yourself. So come, tell me why.. hehe..

Friend : because straight girls are cuter?? easier to find?? come on la.. all les turned from straight one de lor..

Me: like me so cute right?? haha..

Friend: If one day Miss Jeslyn Heng says, " I'm turning les"
There you go..

Me: That will nv happen..

If that happens, the whole world will be upside down. Muhahaha..

She will always use me as an example.
Everytime says, "If you turn les how???"
Nonsense.
You know I will never.

I'm trying to turn her back to the correct path. Ya, she says she wants. We'll see when she turns back ar.. everytime she will say she wants.. but i didn't see her doing it at all. Bleahx.

2007-09-19T10:31:00.000+08:00

my darling went back to uk last night.
Went to send him off..
My friends came along..
Marianne, Ling Feng, Gay and Nigel..
Thanks for coming.
Knowing that I was feeling down, they cheered me up with all kinds of craps and lame jokes.. Haha..
But everytime ling feng ask me to be strong, I would just tear up..

and oh ya, those who say that I would definitely cry yesterday, I'm going to knock your head. I have already said that I won't cry and all of you looked down on me.. June, own me a lunch hor... hahaha.. Make it this friday since we will be meeting each other..

Marianne was telling me about schools and camps. I have really missed out a lot during my attahcment. Plus 1 whole year, I didn go for camps and club events.
Marianne told me that everyone is asking when am I...
Sigh.. Seriously, I miss camps..
It's a different jeslyn again.
Marianne and I would always go high together.. haha...
We are like twins. Nobody can separate the two of us during camps.
Anyway, I promise Marianne that I would be going back to club room when the next semster starts.
I'm going to enjoy my last semster!

To my darling, you never fail to embarrass me in front of my friends.. Why did you tell them what I did when I was drunk?????? Now everyone knows about it already!!! Spreading like fire. sigh..

2007-09-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

time to update!!

didn't update for a long time.. my blog is becoming rusty and screaming for me..

well, my attachment finally ended on Aug 31!! i am so happy!! there is no need to wake up so early everyday. I can get to sleep in everyday!!

met up with ling feng these few days.. updating each other about our stuffs.. i suddenly realise we have changed a lot since sec sch days.. i miss those days..
some things that we talked about made me think..

Who are my true friends?? Friends that will stand up for me, friends that will be there for me when i really need them..

yup, i know it myself. those that really cares for me.. i don't need those that put my dreams down. i don't need hypocrites. i don't need those that wants my attention. No, i will never give it to them. Sometimes, i have to learn to be selfish. If not, everyone will be stepping over me..

Throw these aside.

Let's talk about movie!!!
I watched Ratatouille today. very cute and funny!! if only rats are so cute.. haha..

One Word, IMPOSSIBLE. In real life, they makes my hair stand.. saw one rat running around at the void deck during work.. That was the first time i saw a rat. and i nv want to see it again.

yesterday, i just realised my sis went to set up a blog for jude. haha.. so cute.. but they haven write anything yet. i will post up the link when they are done.

2007-08-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

time for updates!

yesterday went back to sch for pr2.. everything went well.. presentation was short and sweet.. nice one. at least we know rhat we are on the right track.

after presentation, went back to CU to slack.. seriously, i didn't get to see my friends since attachment.. really miss them so much. but the three of us feel that there is a gap between liao.. feels like we are graduates liao.. haha..

yesterday went esplanade to watch fireworks!! one whole bunch of us.

baldwin and me.
ling feng and jason.
Chong yu and his gf.
marianne.
wen long.
lay meng.
jonathan.
wei shan.

Ling feng was damn high yesterday.. haha.. noisy.
fireworks started around 9.15pm.. and we got the best view.. hehe.. all thanks to chong yu..
the firewroks was so close to us.. so exciting. i was so happy!!

everyone was hungry and we headed over to "old market".. haha...
the food was nice. and i had 2 cups of watermelon juice..
eating happily, i suddenly realise that i left my house keys at dear's house.

so sian. need to take bus back to bedok. talking abt this, i was so damn pissed off. 196 took 40 mintues to reach. it wrote on the board that i need to wait for around 20 mintues for 1 bus. but, i waited for 40 min. DOUBLE THE TIME!!!!
nvm, when the bus came, there was this bunch of idiots that turn on the music to the max. come on la, you don't own the bus. and you can jolly well use a earpiece. if not, why is earpiece being invented??? so inconsiderate. i could see dar's face very very pek chek with them. finally, after don't know how long, they finally turn off their music. why? because dar was commenting on them and they heard that.

today is august 18. one more month, dar will be going back to uk.
10 months.
no physical contact, no seeing each other, no phone calls every night..
basically, nothing.
many ppl actually told us that it's not easy to maintain.
" 10 months leh, can a not?"
yes, i agree that it's not easy.
But, the both of us have the ingredients to survive this 10 months.
Love, faith, understanding, telepathy.

2007-08-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

i attended my darling's concert today.. it was not bad afterall.
but what stuck in my mind was what marianne asked me.

marianne: " girl, baldwin's solo haven yet ar?"
jeslyn: " huh? already over liao lor.. he stood there for so long somemore. "
marianne: " really ar?? i didn get to see! "

haha.. she's so cute lor.. she was closing her eyes to enjoy the music but she missed darling's solo..

we went for lunch after the concert. roy and darling kept talking non stop. both of them ganged up to bully lay meng somemore.. guys are just guys.. haha..

not knowing where to go after lunch, we decided to watch movie. Rush hour 3. not bad,was laughing throughout.. some scenes very funny.. but i find that the ending was too quick.
my first reaction was, " huh? finish liao? like that?"
anyway, rating 3 out of 5..

headed over to mac when we reached tampines. talked rubbish with darling. haha..
it started to drizzle the moment we stepped out of the shelter.
slowly, it began to rain heavily..

today, it reminded me of 2 years ago. How i met baldwin chia.
i met him through NP concert..that day was raining heavily.. he sent me home after that. that day, we aint together yet.

but today, the same situation happened again. i went to his concert. on the way home, it started to rain heavily. exactly the same as 2 years ago.

Is this what we called fate??

2007-08-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

met up with my poly frens last night at Bayshore Park.. went to celebrate yu hui's birthday.. at our table, june's voice was all covering everyone's voice.. haha.. she too hyper liao..both of us very happy coz finally got to see our frens.. we miss school too much..

after bbq, we went to east coast for a drink at beach hut.. i wasn't too used to seeing shawn being so emo and depressed.. he was always so hyper.. now, he smokes in front of me.. seriously, i'm very disappointed in him.

Daddy is disappointed in me too.. he never thought that i will run away from home.
i have never heard my mummy putting down her pride , asking me to go home. she was worried abt me.. and my sister apologised to me.. actually, i felt very guilty..
but well, after all these, my mummy tend to listen to me and treat me now..

should i change course or continue on my course??
*headache*

2007-07-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy!!! why??

firstly, teacher finally accepted our project. We finally know what he wants from us.

secondly, i'm paid 200 bucks.. although not a lot, but better than nothing. at least i can survive. and shopping!!!

thirdly, i am going back to sch tml.. miss my friends so much. and the food in school!!!

and lastly, i can go jogging with marianne tml.. *prays hard that it won't rain tml*

i am so tired everyday.. i can't concentrate on anything. i just feel like sleeping. hehe.. well, i'm a lazy pig. everyone knows that. haha.

i'm having rashes in this kind of weather.. this is crazy man!! it's almost raining everyday.. and yet, i have rashes almost every 2 days.. i'm so irritated.

dear's air ticket booked liao.. leaving on the 18 september... yeah!!
i'm excited at the thought of it.. haha..

going to continue my harry potter book liao.. ciao.

2007-07-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

i bought a bag today!!

so happy.. but regretted afterwards.. haha..

dar has been nagging at me.. saying i am too impulsive.. no money still buy.. blah blah blah..

since when did you turn so naggy?????!!!!

project has been very stressful... i just want to end it fast..

my little nephew always makes me happy

2007-07-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

saw donald for the last time today.. while talking to him, i couldn't control my tears.. we told him that we'll see him later.. although it will be long time.. but yeah, we will get to see him...

Thanks for the name that you did for me..
"Don't cry, must smile." This is what you told marianne and me when we cried. We remember it forever.
=)

2007-07-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

Donald has embarked on other journey.
He went first.
I was devastated. I cried.
I couldn't accept that I have lost a friend.
A friend that was with me during the lowest time in my life.
A friend that cheer me up whenever i was sad/crying.
He cares so much for his friends. He treasures his friends a lot.
He is always so happy.
Even when he knew that he has brain tumor.
He was scared yet he showed us his smile.
He was in my life. He was in everyone's life.
I believe that he is with God now, looking at us..
He will waiting for us.

I will always remember you.

2007-07-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

I feel like buying Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes.

Ya, I'm spending money again.

At the rate I'm going, I will be broke before the end of third week.

I can't wait to go back to school.

I miss school life.

I miss everything.

I miss being a child.

I miss you.

I am so tempted to drink wine now.

I'm so random today.

2007-07-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

i am so tired..

no work for me on thursday and friday!!! damn shiok!!
long weekend for me!!

I don't have the stamina that I used to have last time..
But never mind, i will jog twice a week and mr baldwin will accompany me..
He is so nosiy during the run!!! keep talking to me non-stop..
And one last thing, i miss jogging with Marianne..

I love my daddy!! He's so sweet to me!!
Knowing that his little cute daughter loves strawberries, he bought them for her..
Seriously, I have never seen such big strawberries before.. And the best thing is, the strawberries are so sweet.. But, they are expensive.. I know my daddy loves me and I love him too..
The strawberries are mine!!! hehee..

This is what you do when you are bored in the office..

It took us forever to take just one photo.

I am sick yet have the mood to take photo..

Team dinner. Alan's face is blurred.. haha..

Look at the amt of food the 4 of us eat..
And for your info, this is only the first round. We had 4 rounds.

2007-07-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

i feel like buying clothes online again.. argh, so tempting.. nvm, i shall buy when i have enough cash to spare..

are we having durian fever now??? everyone has been buying durian.. daddy bought 3 boxes of durians few days ago.. according to mummy, each box costs 10 dollars.
I ate one just now. it was bitter. I don't know how to appreciate it.
Uncle Terry bought us durians on wednesday after weeks of bugging him..haha.. we inivted everyone in the company for durians.. haha.. only I didn't eat.. because I don't like. june told me that her nose bled the next day.. haha..

Although my life is a bit messed up now, I don't know why but I love my life now.

I know that God will be always be with me, no matter what..

I just love my life now. =)

Life is beautiful, ain't it??

2007-07-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

i changed my blog skin again!! i don't know how many times have i changed.. but yeah, i have changed it.. haha..

today, i realise that i can't stand singaporeans behaviour..
so selfish and inconsiderate.
was on the train today.. there was this eldery standing.. but NO ONE gave up his/her seat for him.. baldwin said very loud that ppl are just so inconsiderate.. however, everyone just pretended that they didn't hear anything.. pretended to be busy, talking on the mobile, sleeping.. if i am not standing, i would have given up my seat to the eldery man..

accompany baldwin to his band practice today.. i was blasting his mp3 the whole time.. and thanks to him, i finally got time to read.. i miss reading!! come to think of it, i have one list of books to buy.. i have so many stuffs to buy.. i am going broke soon!!

after his band, we went to bottle tree park.. it is a private park.. u can do fishing over there.. if you are hungry, there is a restaurant there to fill your stomach.. we went there for prawn fishing.. but the moment we saw the pond, it was so small!!! i cant even swim inside.. quite a no. of ppl was fishing for prawn, but i doubt there is any prawns inside..

slack over there since the atmosphere is very nice.. but i want to go Cozy Bay.. marianne has been telling me that it is very nice.. i must go there one day!!

time to sleep!! have to wake up early.. it's been quite long since i went to church.. =)

2007-06-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

these few days, i have been doing newsletter... at least 4 hours everyday.. my hands very pain coz of the paper cuts.. i am so scare of looking at the newsletter everyday.. i didn stay to help today coz of personal reasons.. well, i don't bother abt it too..

Hatred, Love, Sadness, Frustrated, Anger..
these are what i am feeling everyday..
luckily, there is Mr S.C. to cheer me up..

and abt Mr S.C., he has been bullying me since the day he came back.. EVERYDAY!!!
he still the same.. always getting lost while driving.. haha.. don know get lost how many times liao..tml going fishing.. i pray hard that it won't rain.. please..

2007-06-23T11:46:00.000+08:00

finally met up with marianne on thurs..went to east coast.. yes, again.. haha.. i don't know how many times have i went.. but for sure, more than 3 times in a week.. haha..

had a great chat.. and aeroplanes!! i love aeroplanes!! suddenly, i felt like a kid..i will always look up to the sky whenever a plane flew by.. haha.. sometimes i will say this to myself, " as if u didn see a plane before.." haha.. but i am still so excited abt planes!!!

work was so bored yesterday..manager took a day off.. hehe.. june didn come coz she was sick.. she says she i cause her to be sick coz i kiss her...lol.. everytime tell me she wants a kiss from her.. give her liao, then she sick... hai.. well, this is june.. haha..

i pray for you to get well soon.. =)

2007-06-18T14:07:00.000+08:00

i am sick today..

daddy enjoying in thailand with lynda jie jie they all.. why the timing they chose always clashed with mine?????

mr baldwin fell sick too.. haha.. same as me...

i fell sick at the wrong timing..at the time when i am so broke.. i have never felt so broke before...

coz i am sick, i can't really carry my baby jude for a long time.. i miss carrying and playing with him.. oh ya, he knows how to turn liao!! so cute!! but he very hao lian de.. everytime purposely turn and let me see.. but he don't know how to turn back.. haha.. i just let him cry non-stop... *evil smile* hehe..

i miss daddy...

i miss his cooking..

but nvm, daddy's coming back tonight!!! wonder what will he buy for me?? hehe..
i love presents!!

2007-06-01T16:25:00.000+08:00

finally, there is time for me to update!!

this week, i had two days off, all thanks to the Zero Litter Plan held on Sunday.. that means i only work 2 days.. hehe. so damn happy that i need not work..no need to face ppl that i don like.. no need to be so fake.. hmm..

yesterday had sakae..all thanks to someone ar..reached home around 11 plus.. so damn tired.. i fell asleep while typing my msg half way.. yup, that's how tired i am.. the whole week didn sleep well..

i don't feel like going to work on monday.. hai..so sian.. i don want to do admin work for them.. name card entry she can do it herself.. and those weird weird ppl there( those who knows what happens, should know who am i referring to)

but thinking got cindy and joy.. makes me feel like going.. they are fun to be with and they really taught us alot.. we learnt how to issue work orders and how to deal with residents, being CSI.. haha.. there are actually a lot of weird weird residents around.. whatever shit they will complain also..

having attachment in this company, our group really know how the working life is.. so damn fake.. the ppl here are just so... hmm.. u have to experience it yourself then u will understand..

looking forward to tuesday.. coz that's when terence wong is coming!!!! we are going to tell him so much stuff!!!

and we really miss sch a lot.. feel like going back to sch..

and baldwin is coming back!! finally!! own me a lot of stuffs hor, you??? haha.. see ya in 8 days' time!!

2007-05-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

i cut my hair today!! haha.. so happy.. but was late for appointment.. coz something cropped up at work.. we helped another intern student with her stuffs... if not, she will have to go back quite late..

well, morning went back to sch to clear up everything in our locker.. went back to office during lunch break.. had a meeting and we are helping to design the games items.. right after that, we had training.. hai, damn tiring.. training ended early today, and we tot that we could go back at 5.30.. but, around 4 plus, we were asked to help them write invitations.. lol.. all those admin stuffs.. i told june i will become admin pro liao.. after graduting, i can go be admin.. haha.. Data entry, photocopying, know how to use binding machine, MS Words, MS POwerpoint, MS Excel, MS Access, etc.. esp powerpoint, we are so damn pro in it liao.. stayed until around 6.30pm.. rushed off with june to meet shawn for my hair cut..

our new hairstyle.. nice right???? hehe..

going to sleep liao.. nights!!!! =)

2007-05-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

i am so looking forward to weekends.. but tml will be weekdays again.. MONDAY BLUES.. very lazy to go to work.. haha.. wondering what will we will doing tml?? hope that at least there is something to do..

see this?? this is my apple crumble with rum & raisin ice cream.. yummy!! i totally went into my own world when i was eating it.. but the scope of ice cream not cheap also.. one scope $5.. *faints* order salad & cheese cake.. but forgot to take pics.. the moment the food arrived, everyone took a bite.. haha.. bought 2 shirts at bugis.. felt a bit heart pain.. coz i going broke soon!!!

today i was super pissed with my mom... i just want a quiet time on my own, which means my own space.. i just want to be alone in my room for a while.. she brought my nephew in, saying that he wants to sleep in my room.. i was like ," huh??" when i told her that i want to have my own privacy, she said that this is not my room.. this is her house.. super pissed!!!!!! i also know not my room!!! if that is my room, my sis's belongings would be in my room!!! always put those stupid furnitures in my room for what???!!!

and why can't my sis and her husband take care of their own son??? sit and relax in their room watching vcd.. put their son in my room in the morning and went back to their room and sleep!! what kind of parents?? when he is crying, you scold him?? if u don have the patience, then control yourself!!! what kind of father are you when you scold vulgarities in front of your own son?? even tell your son to kick the dogs next time?? u don gain respect from me at all.. and i don think that ppl will respect you..

yeah!! vent out all my anger liao.. haha.. happy happy!!
- i miss my apple crumble-

2007-04-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

i received my present from my "mummy" today... this "mummy" is my good fren, Shi Hui... miss her so much.. and i really like her present.. i am really touched by her words she wrote in.. she DIY de.. hehe.. yeah, we have come a long way.. i am really surprised by her present.. coz i wanted to do that for someone last time.. we really think alike hor?? i know that you are very busy.. but u took your time.. thank you!!! muacks muacks!!

anyway, today very thristy.. haha.. coz i was talking throughout the day.. nearly every min.. haha.. everytime go out with shi hui is like that one.. both of us non-stop talking.. gossip gossip.. from the day i knew her till now, she is still blur.. worse than me.. but in a cute way..
i really have the urge to eat ice cream.. coz i saw at least 10 ppl eating ice cream... i took 15 mins deciding where i should buy my ice cream from.. but in the end, i decided not to eat.. haha.. i feel that i am so fickle minded.. coz after that, i want to eat again.. why must so many ppl eating ice cream walking past me?????

next time cannot really go shopping liao.. coz attachment starting next week.. and everyday very tired.. today didn have a nice sleep coz my nephew slept in my room in the early morning.. what the... i have to wake every 15 to 20 mins coz of him.. and have to coax him back to sleep... hai.. no choice, he is the little emperor in the house mah.. haha..

2007-04-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

next week attachement start.. excited, happy and worried.. when we knew that we won't be doing that non-related project, and instead, we would be attached out.. we were damn happy.. but our group is separated.. june will be doing alone - benchmarking.. belle and me - FM..
hope that we will still see each other in the office..

25 April is my birthday.. but i expected a lot of ppl will forget.. and is the truth..after clocking out, my poly frens celebrated my birthday for me.. although for a while only.. coz i rushing to meet my family.. guys, thanks a lot.. even though is a surprise but i knew it beforehand.. haha.. =p

went to Din Tai Fung.. yummy.. but didn really eat much.. coz don really have appetite.. but thank you jie!!! coz she treat one..haha

been feeling very down.. and i have been having nightmares.. but hope that all these will be gone b4 my attachement..

2007-04-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

my sis and i bought clothes online and it arrived within 2 days of order..

hehe.. but that means more money gone.. now waiting for another batch to arrive..

went back to sch to check my MP/SIP.. after that went to bugis with shawn and june..
hai.. both of them.. i really want to slap them.. at first they were brickering thru out the journey.. but suddenly, they ganged up to say me.. wa lao.. really pissed me off.. but after that, they started saying others.. oh man.. whole day talking and suaying ppl..

everyone bought their own stuff.. and i finally bought my bag!! but june says is expensive coz is $62.. but i find it ok la.. coz i like it..

today whole day no appetite at all coz sore throat.. whatever i eat, i feel so hard to swallow.. is getting worse.. hai.. hope i will recover fast..

excited to go to sch next week.. and my sis says on my birthday, the whole family will go din tai fung.. yeah!! excited!!! i kept asking june to buy this buy that for me.. and everytime, she will either pretend she didn hear me or give me that kind of killer look.. haha.. and baldwin, you better give me presents hor.. PRESENTS not PRESENT.. =p

2007-03-18T11:36:00.000+08:00

i hate selfish ppl

ppl who don stand in others' shoes and think..

only know how to say and scold..

i am not someone that you paid to look after the dogs...\

2007-03-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

suppose to go gym yesterday.. but last min cancel..

sorry guys..

met up with shawn for dinner.. and movie!! watched pursuit of happiness.. i must say that this movie taught us a lot of things..

Don't give up easily and perserve on.

Your hardwork will paid off one day..

Protect your dreams.

Before the movie started, shawn received his exam results.. it totally spoilt my mood.. coz i haven receive yet.. got a feeling will receive during the movie.. and yes, my gut feeling is right.. i pass all.. and i manage to pull my GPA up.. happy but a bit disappointed coz i aim to pull my GPA from 2.72 to 2.93..

Basic FA: A

SPLN : C+
CONADM: B+

BLDGMSS: B+
MACT: B+
ORGCOM: A
ACONHYD: Z

GPA: 2.93

this time round, my mom didn say anything but she seems quite happy with my results.. i need to pull my GPA up again..

i want to show my relatives that being in engineering sch doesnt mean that you are useless..

it doesn't mean that studying in engineering , you are stupid..

it doesn't mean that you have to study business to be good..

"Business better than Engineering"

Get that kind of mindset off..

can't be bother abt them anymore..

this pic, i can't help but comment that he looks like la bi xiao xing.. haha..

ending off with little cute jude jude..

He makes me smile.. =)

2007-02-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

long time didn blog le.. before i start on anything, Happy New Year!!!

nowadays quite stress with the main exams.. lots of things to study.. just finish one paper today.. not confident at all.. lost 20 marks.. sian... next week got mact.. lots of things to study..hai.. i think i will be distracted by jude jude..

this is jude jude... my little nephew.. so cute right??
he is a little curious boy.. and he always listen to our conversation when he is sleeping.. he will always smile whenever we talked abt him.. haha.. and he cries only when he shits or hungry.. my sis tries to wake him up when he is still sleeping.. but he heck care her.. continue his sleeping. no matter what we do to wake him up, he just don bother abt us.. ai ya.. he is too cute to resist.. haha..

shall end here..will update with more pics next time...

2007-01-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

so many things happen this week....

beginning of the week..
i sprained my ankle.. alll thanks to my dogs... accidentally stepped on their toys and fell down..
monday and tuesday MC.. yeah!!! but missed two tests.. but luckily able to retake again..
until today still haven recover yet.. coz i cant sit still.. haha.. but now not as pain as the first day...

wednesday..
what happen on that day i must really blog!!!! my class got one person can get the best actress award, you know???

actually there is a group meeting on the tuesday for the org com... but coz i didn go on tuesday.. so change to wed...

while waiting for teacher outside the staff room.. this actress kept saying that she very scare coz her english nt good.. and she from overseas de.. scare that she will not talk a lot.. we, being nice, we comfort her, saying, " nvm one la, if u will talk, we will let u talk one la.."

once the meeting started, she kept talking and talking lor.. all of us were so stunned.. we moved on to the next agenda.. but she kept asking questions and talking abt the previous one.. teacher even say that she was impressed by her!!!! what the lor!!!!! she is so fake before that lor!!!! she is already prepared for that meeting le!!! she can claim the BEST ACTRESS AWARD.. it goes to her.. not anyone.. so damn pissed off with her!!!

yesterday i realise that i didn rest my leg at all.. been walking here and there.. i tot i could rest a while when i reach home.. but in the end, i have to clear my room and my sis's room... she got so many clothes lor.. in the end, i only clear 1/4 of my room only... still got so many stuff to clear... hai.. feeling very lazy to clear.. and a bit not used to my room now.. no toilet in my room anymore.. but got television.. hehe... not used to my bed also.. i miss my bed!!!

gtg le... ciao..

2007-01-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

long time didn update le.. nearly a month.. updating now coz of a guy named baldwin... he tot i went missing when i didn update or online.. haha.. well, can send me email mah.. though i seldom check.. haha..

finally completed my 3 tests this week le.. yeah!!! and got back my term test results.. not bad.. a lot of stuff actually wanted to say here de.. but i don want to say... coz someone been reading my blog.. and i don wish that person to know..

so yeah.. don worry baldwin.. i am fine!!! and happy.. and enjoying myself every moment.. hehe.. =) and oh well... happy belated birthday..

2006-12-11T14:18:00.000+08:00

i read the newspaper just now.. and was a bit unhappy.. really unhappy..

my cousin passed away on last wed.. coz of heart attack.. hai.. within half year.. there were 2 ppl passing away in our family.. one is my cousin's dad.. now him..

during the wake, there were reporters coming asking us for interviews.. of coz we rejected.. then they called and my mom ans the phone.. whatever they asked, my mom ans.. this one is still ok.. i still can understand.. coz it is the reporter's job.. but then, what i am unhappy abt is that.. yesterday was the funeral.. when we were pushing the car.. the reporter was actually next block taking photos of us when we sending my cousin off... and it was in the newspaper last night!!! we were already upset abt the death.. or should i say.. shocked by it le.. esp his siblings.. imagine u just came back from holidays.. on the way back home from airport, u received a call saying that your brother cannot make it.. somemore.. all of us didn know that he is having heart attack..

and the doctor downstair.. really hor.. i got nothing to say.. when my mom went to find the doctor to go and see my cousin.. the doctor kept asking my mom what happen.. and he still got patients to attend to.. come on la.. if we know we already tell liao.. a life at stake le.. if it is not serious we would have call u go up what.. but in the end, the doctor also didn do anything when he went up.. he just said need to call the ambulance... then stand there do nothing.. we already panic like crazy liao.. coz all don noe what happen.. my little cousins all scared until don noe like what liao..

i really hope that this kind of thing won happen to family again... is already enough for us le.. first time i saw so many ppl crying.. his mom.. his wife.. my mom.. his siblings and my cousins..cry until like siao.. really hope that this kind of thing won happen again..

2006-11-25T11:15:00.000+08:00

finally, week end is here!!! i can rest le!! clear 2 quizzes and one report in these week..

but next week got lab assignment and if i am not wrong.. is 20%.. hai.. so much weightage.. space planning always makes me so stressed up.. coz no examination de.. so daily work and lab assignment must be done properly.. and every week, every lesson must hand up something.. but my lab assignment, this time round, not very good.. i lost precious marks by not writing sq metres.. hai.. nearly fail.. but next week must do better le..

got contract admin de quiz also..that one still ok.. but a lot of stuff to study.. must start studying le.. nvm, at least i am happier.. and i still can manage my time well.. coz after sch, if june or belle not working, we will go shopping!!

yesterday supposed to go for the talk abt the IR resorts de.. in the end, june and me didn go coz lazy.. and we wanted to rush down to vivo.. haha.. went window shopping.. i cant buy any stuffs.. coz i ended my last buy of the month le.. saw a lot of stuffs i wanted to buy.. so all these add on to the shopping cart for the next month.. haha..

i wanted to withdrew money coz very hungry... then don have cash on me..but.. i cant find the atm machine.. so bo bian.. went to harbourfront centre.. haha.. took quite sometime to decide what to eat.. in the end, we ate wang jiao.. is a cafe that sell kaya toast de.. while we were eating, we talked abt a lot of stuffs.. stuffs that we can really reflect ourselves...

went back to vivo.. coz still don want to go home so early.. i suggested going to GAP.. and guess who i saw??? JEREMY.. he is my poly fren.. but he quit tp after 2months.. omg.. so shocked to see him working there... at first, i smiled at him when i went in.. then he waved to me.. i was like," who is this guy??" then i realised is jeremy.. haha.. cannot recognise him at all.. coz he changed a lot.. lol.. feels like we were all back in sem 1.. hai.. missed those times.. and he is getting well.. going to get his diploma soon.. even faster than us.. lol.. congrats!!

after that, is home sweet home.. haha.. reached home around 9 plus going to 10.. my relatives at my house playing mahjong.. no wonder my mom didn call me and nag at me.. lol.. and oh ya, my sister is coming back!!! yeah!!!

2006-11-23T10:29:00.000+08:00

bmss quiz was still ok la.. manage to get tips from unnie at the last min.. lol..

acct quiz was like.. hai.. can pass can liao.. i went blur when doing the last question...

last night has been an " exciting" night for me.. haha.. those who know what is going on will know what is that.. hai..

the truth is always ugly..

do i want to know the truth??

i know i will be hurt if i know.. coz i CAN'T STAND PEOPLE LYING TO ME!!!

after some thinking.. i still want to know the truth..i don want to be last to know.. i don want to be in the dark...

i am so confused.. i don noe whether to believe a not.. i don noe which part to believe.. as what ling feng said, things are getting so complicated when we don even know what is really going on..

i thought that my life is going smoothly and better than last time le.. but why stuffs always come out at the time when i am better?? when i am happier??

but this matter didn make me sad or what.. i just don feel good.. this also makes me realise something else..

i just want to have a life which i don have so many troubles.. hai.. but i am not going to let this matter bring me down.. i am a strong girl!! haha.. i give it the benefit of doubts... the truth will be revealed by itself.. i just sit back and relax.. waiting for the truth to come.. lol

2006-11-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

yunho is so cute right??? haha... his dancing very nice..

oh well.. today ia m a good girl.. stay at home the whole day.. but i was doing research on mact.. ya.. there is another project again.. friday must pass up the report.. hai.. so many stuff to do..

monday pass up space planning..
tuesday got orgcom mock test..
wednesday got acct & bmss test
friday pass up mact report..

dotz.. so many stuff to do!!! argh!!!

went out yesterday with ling feng, darrell bear bear and zoo keeper.. lol.. haha..met up with ling feng and zoo keeper first.. coz darrell working.. gossip non stop on mrt.. haha.. and keep complainig that we were very hungry.. haha...on the way to orchard, we were making racist jokes.. hai.. *shakes head* very bad leh.. haha..

sis called me and asked me to buy leggings for her.. so man fan lor this sister.. haha.. the moment we reached far east, we went to have a bite.. haha.. zoo keeper buy toast for us.. yummy!!! haha.. darrell met us aftet his work.. after that, went around shopping and trying clothes.. darrell a lot of comments one leh.. ling feng only say that the dress very nice.. and darrell made this comment , " this dress don suit you.." qi si ren le.. haha.. he keep bullying ling feng lor.. nvm, next time i bully him back..

aijisen for dinner.. had crayfish ramen and soft shell crab .. yummy!!! we had a nice chat huh.. having S&C... lol.. what is S&C? go guess ba... darrell treat us leh.. haha.. thanks ar!!

on the way back, feel down suddenly.. don noe why also..but after a while ok le.. ling feng and darrell alight at pasir ris.. while zoo keeper and me alight at tampines.. he send me home.. and had a talk with me under my block.. thanks for acc me to talk.. and sorry that it was quite late le when u went to meet your frens.. sorry..

sis came back today..she likes to disturb me when i sleeping de..asked me to wake up to see if she looks weird wearing leggings..at first i tot that the leggings might be too long for her.. but ai ya, she got long legs.. so it was ok on her.. she coming back on tuesday.. yeah!!! but she going overseas on thurs... dad actually don allow.. coz she pregnant..and worry for her.. after talking to him, ok liao.. haha.. but he still worry la..

and oh ya.. today is my jie fu birthday.. HAPPY BRITHDAY!!! hope everything goes well for you.. =)

2006-11-19T15:13:00.000+08:00

DBSK- Yunho's Dance on X-Man

2006-11-13T19:19:00.000+08:00

Friday

sch was alright for me.. presentation on that day.. was laughing throughout the presentation.. all thanks to june.. haha.. she kept making me laughed.. i think the 3 of us are the most noisy ppl in the class.. talked to albert on msn.. haha.. he seems very free ar.. lol.. ask me to organise outing.. told ling feng abt it.. and she damn excited abt it!!! haha.. everytime talked abt albert, she will be excited and high.. haha..

met kor at kovan.. for what?? bring him go shi hui's mom shop for facial..while waiting for him, i did pedicure.. hehe.. nice nice.. took a long time to choose the colours.. it was worth it.. coz it turn out well...

Saturday

actually want to make spec de.. but sis say she bring me go next time.. so yeah.. went out with june.. as usual la.. she late for 45 mins.. but i am not angry.. lol.. went city hall.. far east.. wanted to buy a bag.. but then.. my mom called and scolded me.. coz of my hp bill.. well.. spoil my mood for the whole day.. seeing me so pissed off.. june treated me to eat french toast and lemonade.. thanks girl.. went off at around 7 plus.. coz i going to my cousin house.. took 518 and there wasa traffic jam.. reached my cousin house around 9.. i greeted everyone there.. and yet, my dad didn know that i have reached.. haha.. he too into mahjong liao..

Today

hai.. don feel like going to sch de.. but i pulled myself all the way to sch.. coz of the lab assignment.. met june and she complained to me abt her stuff.. her bf.. seriously.. if my bf treat me like what her bf treat her.. i will make sure he won be able to have a child.. belle and i was saying and sort of scolding june throughout lunch time.. haha.. until june buay tahan us.. sorry girl.. but we meant well for u.. we don want u to patch break patch break with him.. he seriously not worth it la!!!

just received a project for mact today.. hai.. last friday just handed up one.. now got another one.. getting stressed up abt this le.. that time the research damn hard to find lor.. hai..

lab assignment today really very gan chiong.. need to draw floor plan for an office.. hai yo.. i spend too much time on the reception area.. i spent 1 hour doing that.. and i got to draw 4 rooms in 2 hours.. the rest of the 3 rooms i really gan chiong until siao.. must plan where to put the furnitures.. the space needed for ppl to walk and blah blah blah.. hai.. hope that will be able to do well..

going to do my lecture notes abt duct design.. yes.. abt air con stuff again.. i don like PBL la!! must do own lecture notes.. do our own working examples.. i don noe anything abt my topic.. yet, friday have to pass up lecture notes, working examples.. and i am having a pop quiz.. *faints* so many stuffs to do.. argh.. but i know i can do it de!!

ciao..

2006-11-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

aaa.. didn go for acct lect.. haha.. coz went to take some stuff from ling feng at 9.. then will be late for lect also.. might as well don go.. at least got time to do my project.. keke.. tml need to hand up acct tut and that mr unnie's report.. hai.. sian.. friday need to hand up mact and do presentation.. so many stuffs to do.. but nvm.. got june and belle!! we can do it de!!

i want to go out on saturday!!! coz i will be taking my pay on friday!!! *happy happy happy*

didi.. me..ling feng and shi hui..

didn manage to write finish the word " Friends".. but is still very nice!!!
why he everytime look in different direction one??? haha..

Friends forever!!!

2006-11-02T09:39:00.000+08:00

i should be at lecture now.. but i am at home.. don feel like going for lecture.. actually don feel like going to sch de.. but later got lab assignment.. hai..

was chatting with ling feng last night.. suddenly feel that neglected her a lot.. hmm.. lucky decided to call her yesterday.. had a great chat with her.. yup.. and i realised something.. both of us going thru the same stuff..the feelings we have.. both of us have the same thoughts.. we both thought it is a stupid thought.. but we still think abt it.. the reason we didn really find each other when we needed someone to talk is the same.. coz we know that both of us got problems that haven settle yet.. so we don dare to find each other.. hai.. hope that everything will goes well for the both of us..

2006-10-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

muhaha.. time to blog!!!

the moment i think abt thurs, i feel very sian lor.. coz space planning got lab assignment le!!!! so fast lor.. i haven even really know how to draw floor plan properly lor.. today after space planning very tired.. all my brain juice squeeze out... all thanks to the kitchen and bathroom.. so hard to plan and draw lor.. now then i know draw floor plan so man fan one.. between appliances must have how much space.. blah blah blah.. all these must know by heart.. but lucky, no examination de!!!

june's drawing got plenty of space de.. then i say can dance inside the bathroom.. lol.. both of us laughing like hell.. saying next time go june's house clubbing.. both of us too high liao la.. draw until high.. draw until siao.. haha..

since school started, i have been watching show everyday.. not those kind of drama or tv show.. it is 100 times more interesting.. haha.. belle and june's show.. everyday see him shooting with each other.. being very pek chek with each other.. haha.. very funny lor.. belle cannot take morning jokes de.. meaning in the morning, cannot tell her jokes.. if not she will be very pek chek.. but june every moment will ji siao her one.. lol.. interesting girls..

no matter during tutorial or lecture.. the 3 of us will be chatting.. bitching around.. haha.. esp june and me.. the laughter damn loud.. noisy noisy noisy.. haha.. 2 of them are really my poly best mates..

sat went out to have dinner with my family.. lol.. my sis made a comment abt me and my brother-in-law..

sis: ying, u want rice??
me: * nods head.. busy eating*
gideon: * went off to take rice*
sis: the 2 dragons ar.. same one leh.. eat a lot of rice one.. and they don eat prawn's tail de..

lol.. didn notice until my sis says.. i share another bowl of rice with my brother-in-law.. and our appetite quite big also.. haha.. eat and eat.. didn talk de.. coz we both in the year of dragon mah!!
went out with my family quite fun.. coz my brother-in-law very chatty.. haha..

i need to go do homework le.. i am a good girl ok?? i will do my homework de!!! haha..

ciao..

2006-10-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

i scare the hell out of my frens today.. sorry.. esp belle and june... i also scare the hell out of me.. don noe what's up with me today.. feeling very weird.. well, hope this won happen again..

hmm.. i think my memory getting worse liao le...

peng cheng : calling marianne ar??

me: how you know i was going to call her??

peng cheng : u told me...

me: got meh?? i don recall telling you leh..

peng cheng : got...

me: just now over the phone ar??

peng cheng : ya..

hai yo.. i really don rmb telling him i am going to call marianne leh.. very weird leh.. didn even mention to him abt marianne..

today meet calvin at 12 plus under my block.... he was complaining to me that he walked from sch to my block very far.. hey hey, far then don meet la.. haha.. something weird happened today also.. i was looking at my hp.. the time shows 14.32.. in my heart i was thinking, " so fast 2 plus le.. a bit weird leh.. just met him not long ago only.." after eating my lunch, he decided to walk to our sec sch.. coz long time nv walked there le.. on the way there, i looked at my watch.. it was only 1.35!!! then i took out my hp and see the time.. it was 1.35 also!!! i was like huh!!! why so weird?? just now i really see the time as 14.32... don noe what happen to me sia.. nowadays always like that.. hai..

tml still got lesson.. a bit sian coz got space planning.. i love and hate this.. coz is like learning interior designing de.. but have to sketch and i hate to draw!! nvm, i must make myself love to draw then i can draw well.. lol.. =)

2006-10-21T20:44:00.000+08:00

i loved my timetable!!! why?? coz monday can go jogging!! yeah!! back in the same class as june again!! yeah!! june is my noisy les partner!!!

went back to sch yesterday.. to watch wen long's dance performance.. but b4 that, went to crash orientation with marianne and wak first.. long time didn see wak le!! as usual, he pinched my face and he is the only one that can pinched my face.. muhaha... saw my juniors.. and one of my sec sch fren in my course also!! so surprised to see him..

went down to club room first coz i very thristy.. stayed there, use com.. alone in club room feels very shiok.. jing yao came in to use com.. talked abt the timetable and stuffs.. and abt my cp.. lol.. finds that my cp very funny... darrell came down and acc me.. can see that he a bit worried for me.. but don worry, i am ok!!!

acc wak to sports hall as it was still early for us to go for the performance.. june(know her from lead camp de) hurt herself.. take care, girl!! saw quite a number of lead camp de ppl.. yup, long time didn see them le..

dance performance was great!!! i loved the hip hop and modern dance.. wen long's duet was very very nice.. and i saw my pri sch fren in the hip hop.. didn know that she joins.. really enjoyed myself there..

back to sports hall.. saw the freshies's skit.. very funny.. soon, it was time for us to go.. coz marianne and me very hungry.. esp me.. coz i didn eat the whole day.. wak lead the cheers.. he very emotional.. as usual. the three of us went around saying good bye.. we took quite long to say good bye.. too many ppl to say le.. lol.. finally, to prata shop!!

haha... didn eat much also.. coz think too hungry le.. but really enjoyed myself yesterday.. thanks marianne, june , darrell and wak.. feels better yesterday le.. i know a lot of ppl dote on me.. feels so loved by all of u.. i love u all lots!!! muacks!!!

2006-10-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

last day of work today.. finally!!! was a bit late for work.. ky even later than me.. was a bit surprised when i saw karen.. why?? coz first time see her wear skirt..

sort out all those forms.. and arrange it according.. then key in all those information into the laptop.. hmm.. although easy but tiring.. maybe didn sleep well the night before.. do until 11 plus, karen came back.. ask us do finished already... but got a lot lor.. so she called mr khoo and asked him how.. u know what he said??? ask us to do full day!!! argh!! the moment i heard it, i was not happy abt it.. coz mr khoo was the one that say tuesday do half day de.. but lucky karen very nice.. she said do half day can le.. a bit sad when leaving the place.. coz that place, the people ther very nice.. and the talks and gossips we have during work.. power!! haha.. u will nv imagine what we talked abt.. everything under the sun.. haha..

went out with marianne.. bought a MANGO wallet.. hehe.. nice nice.. nearly bought a bag..but due to me wanting to buy other stuff, i stopped myself from buying.. went to slack at starbucks.. haha.. both of us having a nice time over there..

reached home around 6 plus.. i requested to go home early coz my sis coming home today.. yesterday she came back, but i didn see her coz working.. so today, no matter what, must see her.. finally, she came back!! yeah!! so happy!! me, my sis and mom kept chatting non stop.. very funny.. haha... enjoy the talk.. now then i know that my brother-in-law's sister's name is the same as me.. she is also called hui ying.. my mom said that, that day both the hui ying took the limelight somehow.. haha.. my sis's frens all can see that i am blur blur de.. like a sotong.. lol.. i really looked like a sotong meh?? but come to think of it, i am really blur la.. haha..

i love my sister, my mom and dad.. today love my mom more.. coz she gave me 100 bucks to pay my bills.. haha.. yeah!!

2006-10-15T11:24:00.000+08:00

bleahx..

feel so tired now.. but i am not going to be lazy.. i am going to blog..

Friday

i woke up at 7.30am.. omg.. i knew i was late for work.. if bernie didn sms me, i think i would have slept all the way till afternoon..rush down to work...reached there before 9.30.. fast huh?? haha.. called bernie to come out coz my pass with him.. actually that day nothing to do also.. packed finished everything.. we actually sat there and talked.. haha.. we ended work at 12... hmm.. felt a bit sad.. coz will miss that place.. last time we always say is prison.. coz of the envirnoment.. but actually is a very nice place.. with all the nice ppl there and food.. haha..

went bugis find my sister.. she doing manicure and pedicure.. nv tell me lor.. then i cannot do coz i didn make appointment.. went to polished diva find her.. i like the atmosphere there.. she then ask me to go walk walk around then go do manicure.. realise that bugis street de shop open around 2 de.. so went to bugis junction PINC there to do manicure..yeah!! did my french manicure.. but when i took out my stuff.. i accidentally "spoil" it.. hai.. but not very obvious..

3 went orchard find her again.. she rushed down to orchard first coz she got another appointment.. busy girl.. haha.. met her at lucky plaza de underpass.. we went to eat mos burger.. again, i paid money first... coz she not enough cash.. after that, she went to buy new bra.. i paid for her again.. coz there don accept american express.. from then on, every shop we went, before we shopped for anything, she will ask," do you accept american express?" haha..

she bought precious moments de Figurines for my brother-in-law.. went a lot of places.. and all the time both of us were rushing..

Forever 21 : hairbands..
The Face Shop : lip gloss, mascara, lips&eye remover
That CD shop: Cds
Shaw centre : bobbi brown's foundation
Bridal shop: alter my dress.. and my sis went there for last fitting..

that day, i think we both spend a lot.. more than $300.. very tiring also.. reached home around 8 plus.. a lot of ppl at my house.. playing mahjong...sis's frens came over and prepare the door games.. haha.. i am the first one to sleep.. too tired le..

Saturday

woke at 5.30am.. my sis at 5am.. her fren at 6.. haha.. after bathing, i have to acc my sis to eat her meals.. one of the traditons.. went to do my stuffs after that.. lol.. 7 plus, bryan called me.. he is my brother-in-law fren.. ask him to honk the car.. so that my cousins can go down.. and remind him that they are not supposed to come up until my cousins went down.. haha.. my cousins damn cute lor.. they got reharsal de.. coz they have to kick the car.. but the car ex.. so they teach them how to kick.. haha.. both my cousins very clever, they ran up very fast.. and i quickly lock the gate and closed the door.. muhaha.. they cant come in le..

we slip the paper under the door step.. asking for hong bao.. when i saw the hong bao under the door step, i quickly snatch it.. haha.. they say we very fast.. lol.. when the second hong bao came in, we open the door.. but not the gate..lol...

they have to eat butter and is 50 g each..haha..
one of the guys have to use the sarong to cover himself and take off his underwear..haha.. he so sway to take that..he keep complaining while he doing.. haha..
use veet to remove their leg hair.. but that guy who tio this, don have leg hair!! so the others have to do.. lol..
there are 8 sweets hanging.. 6 are tie with white strings.. 2 are tied with red strings.. one of the guys have to carry my brother-in-law to take the 2 sweets that are tied with red strings.. haha.. laughing like hell ..
there are 9 keys.. they have to choose which key is to open the gate.. only 2 chances.. he nearly took the right key.. but his best man say another one.. haha.. so wrong key...

for every mistakes they made and if they are over time, we got one hong bao!! haha.. so fun!! finally let them in.. my dogs very funny.. coz cashew keep sitting with my sister.. it seems that he knows what is happening.. i think every photo got him inside.. haha..

went to my brother-in-law for tea ceremony.. i was helping my sister to keep her hong bao.. then suddenly, they ask me, " u are winnie's sister right?? you two like twins like that.." haha..

back home for tea ceremony.. haha.. my house is damn fun lor.. my relatives they all so funny.. those that helped out got hong bao take.. they say this part time job not bad.. haha.. went down to hotel.. i like the suite... nice!!! on the 66th floor.. change to my another dress and went down to help out at the reception..a lot of ppl ask me if i am winnie's sister.. haha.. getting nervous as time past..coz i need to walk down the aisle by myself.. gideon's sister, which is my brother-in-law's sister.. bought me in to see first.. the first reaction i have, " how to walk for 1 min? 15 secs can walk finished le.." haha.. the thing i was shocked abt was she held my hand.. coz i didn really know her also.. but can see that she is a very nice girl..

around 2, my sis finally came down.. i was very nervous standing at the door there.. my sis can see that i very nervous.. and ask me don be nervous and must smile.. when the door open, omg, that time my heart going to jump out.. so many ppl looking at me lor.. then i have to throw the flower petals.. i a bit lost my balance coz i not used to walking slow with heels and is a carpeted area.. but still managed to complete.. as i walked down, i can hear a lot of ppl saying, " winnie's sister.." ... i don noe hear how many times le.. haha..

the food was nice and i drank!!! haha.. so happy!! we were bidding ppl good bye.. and there were ppl asking if i am winnie's sister.. haha.. after everything ended, went up to my cousin's room.. he got free room for don noe how many nights.. so good..

reached home called my sister.. nearly cried when talking to her.. actually the whole day nearly cried.. coz i miss my sister being at home with me.. but nvm, still can meet her de..

2006-10-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

i feel so lazy to blog!!! but have to.. coz i am very busy nowadays.. this is the only way my frens know what am i up to.. haha..

this whole week been very busy... work and work.. and my sis's wedding preparations.. i cannot recalled where i went on monday and tuesday after work.. but yesterday went orchard to shop for dress...saw one dress that i liked a lot!!! but is $299... my pay will be gone if i bought that...

before that, was working.. we went to another centre to work after lunch..
transportation: mr khoo's " 4 onion rings" ... lol.. ask bernie if want to know..
paste all those labels... and blah blah blah.. oh man, i hate that place.. is so humid, eerie lor.... dirty..dusty.. i will die if i sit there in the room.. lol..

finally to orchard!!! long time didn go le.. but no mood to shop coz feeling very tired.. while waiting for june, i went to shop shop first.. thanks bernie and kin yang for acc me.. but also sorry coz u two always wait for me de.. sorry..

bought a dress at far east but my mom nagged at me.. for all kinds of reasons.. so short la the dress.. blah blah blah.. so damn pissed off lor.. everytime like that de.. coz of her, i cancelled the meeting with calvin today.. sorry calvin, i know u become airport le.. i will make it up to u.. promise!!!

bought another 2 dresses today!!! white and black de.. 115 bucks altogether.. and my mom paid for me.. haha.. and she nv complain leh.. coz she is the one that ask me to buy de.. actually each piece is 79 bucks.. but got discount.. yeah!!! the black one i die also want to buy.. coz i like.. she always bo bian.. coz she dragged me to buy de..

that means altogether i got 3 dresses on that day.. more than my sis sia.. haha.. on that day, i got stuff to do.. a bit excited yet nervous.. i have to walk down MYSELF down the walkway for 1 min.. all eyes will be on me.. scare i will busrt out laughing.. those who knows me well, will know that i will laugh if i am too nervous de.. and do silly stuff without me knowing..haha...

tml if work full day.. i don noe want to take half day a not.. coz is the second last day.. then will miss all those ppl there also.. hai.. but tml want to help my sister also.. don noe leh.. see tml how lor.. i shall end here today.. ciao..

2006-10-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

i love today!!! working non stop during weekends.. and weekends are for me to enjoy and enjoy!!!

let me start with what happened on friday..

Friday
work was ok.. but was tired as usual.. but when lunch break, suddenly very awake.. haha.. always like that...

after work, went to tiong bahru plaza walk walk for a while.. waiting for my future brother-in-law to come and fetch me.. got a feeling he will call when i am in the toilet.. and it really happened.. good timing.. haha...

he brought me to his office there to buy ice cream.. then drove to hdb's carpark.. coz we don noe where to go..haha.. inside his car, ate my ice cream and talked abt some stuff.. actually he wanted to bring me go book cafe.. but my sis called and asked us to fetch her..

went back tampines to fetch my dad.. went to the bridal shop... i chose my gown le..grey colour de!! nv tot that i will choose that gown.. coz when i first saw that, don really like it.. until i tried on it.. it's nicer than the rest!! but i love my sister's de.. so nice lor.. will try to take photos of it and post it up..

Saturday

was feeling moody when i woke up coz of a dream..

called marianne and we went to simei.. bought a pair of shoes!!! yeah!!! is grey and yellow de.. nice nice and is only 22 bucks.. got new shoes!!! so happy...

went to marianne coz she wants to bath.. in the end, not enough time.. coz meeting wen long for musical by SP at NUS.. on the train, the three of us kept discussing abt haze.. haha.. we could not see a lot buildings from afar.. all coz of the haze and is really bad.. makes me have breathing difficulties.. and we talked and laughed very loud.. think the whole cabin can hear us.. haha.. anyway, our group are always so loud de.. even if there is just 2 of us.. lol..

felt very very dress down when we reached NUS.. coz everyone was so dressed up.. haha.. saw kym ng.. she was so beautiful!!!

didn regret going to the musical.. it was great!!! but i felt that some parts actually was unnecessary de.. makes the whole thing very draggy.. but the songs were great!!

one of the main lead was very cute!!! omg... marianne and i kept saying.. haha.. and kelly poon was their guest singer.. she sang the next national theme song.. according to what they said.. the 3 of us felt their her singing wasnt their great.. their ending can be improved.. coz it sort of like left hanging there.. but overrall, it was a great one!! well done!!

took a cab back to tampines int.. had mac.. but it was mc cafe.. hot chocolate and blueberry muffin.. yummy.. but i didn finish my food.. haha.. appetite these few days not so good.. haha..
saw a lot of jyss de people.. and we were saying jyss de people all night owls.. coz we all don sleep early de.. and i am one good example!!! lol..

tml going to have a bit of change of look.. hope will be able to do it.. coz need money..
i am going to do a lot of stuff.. doing manicure.. facial.. shopping for heels.. all for my sis's coming wedding.. =)

2006-10-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

marianne, don cry!!!!

ling feng, anything can contact me.. don worry...

i still have energy for all my frens.. even if i am tired.. haha.. i am a strong girl!!! yeah!!!

went to work today.. so damn pissed off... maybe my mood not very good at first.. and bernie told me something that ken said abt me when i was nto at work.. talk behind my back.. what the hell.. i hate ppl to do that.. cowards...

stupid ppl with a stupid thinking.. wear canvas shoes means they are china ppl meh???????
so many ppl in singapore wear lor!! stupid guy.. stupid thinking..

after went to chalet.. haha.. ling feng and me still the same.. i tot is at aranda.. she tot at downtown.. walked here walked there.. in the end.. at coasta sands.. we didn even know where is it.. haha.. as usual, the guys playing mahjong.. never play mahjong will die ar??
waited for calvin to come with the food.. wait until i want to die of hunger liao.. around 8, finally can eat steamboat le!!! omg.. the guys ar.. really cannot tahan them.. chiong all the way to eat.. haha.. but i also faster sat down when some of them went to play playstation.. lol... andy and calvin helped me and ling feng peel the prawn shell.. both of them so auto.. at first got 8 of us at the table.. in the end, only left 4.. that is me, ling feng, calvin and andy...

feel that the guys haven really changed.. still the same old them.. and really miss the times with them a lot.. but i have to admit, they are more matured liao.. expect for wei sian.. must think before you speak!!! haha.. saw li wei and denise.. the old feeling still there.. same old them.. haha.. glad to see them before i went off..

i like the past de us.. no matter if you are the kukus.. or JD.. these 2 groups of frens.. but i also like now de us.. coz i can say we really matured a lot.. we really grown up le.. we understand each other a lot a lot.. we care abt each other.. but we don say out.. we use actions..
hope our friendship lasts forever!!! =)

2006-10-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

just reached home.. watched rob-b-hood... nice!! and the baby so so so cute... his eyes so nice...

i feel so out of myself.. don feel like myself anymore..

i cant recall a lot of stuff.. and my memory is getting worse..and worse..

the way i crossed road today.. if it continues on, one day i will be knocked down by car..

i am scared.. very..

i seemed to have really lost myself this time..

2006-10-04T09:08:00.000+08:00

i am supposed to be working now.. but here i am..blogging.. why?? coz i didn go work today!! wasnt feeling well even after 12 hours of sleep.. haha.. my head still pain.. hai...

going for a check up soon.. my master says he will acc me.. don noe true a not.. anyway, he also need a checkup for his hearing.. haha.. and now then i know my master so CLEVER de.. he knows ct scan is for head de leh... not x ray.. haha..

read marianne's blog just now.. seems like a lot of things is happening to JD.. hai..
our group been riding on a rollar coaster since don noe when.. hope everything will be fine for us...

lastly, i want to apologise to pc.. i'm sorry.. i cancelled our meeting twice in a row.. coz i wasnt feleing well.. and to calvin, my master also.. sorry.. coz everytime u want to meet, my timing always cannot de..

2006-10-01T16:19:00.000+08:00

i am so angry lor!!!

marianne should know why!!!

someone tore my hearts.. and is 2!!!

argh!!!

in total.. 5 of my hearts no more le...

argh!!!

so pissed off lor....

2006-10-01T01:37:00.000+08:00

i am feeling down again..

don noe if is becoz i not feeling well or what..

but anyway, i hate it..

i can feel my heart bleeding and crying for me..

i have no more tears anymore..

i rather cry out..

coz it hurts more crying inside..

2006-09-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

i am so hungry now.. waiting for my sis to buy back lunch for me.. suppose to go do facial today.. but when i woke up, i feeling giddy and nausea.. hai.. knew today i will feel giddy when i was sleeping last night.. hai.. now everywhere also cannot go.. i want to do facial de!!! =(

lucky my sis got medication.. if not i think i whole day lie on the bed can le.. at least after eating the medication, now feel better le.. don noe is it becoz i giddy, cannnot think well.. i actually went to pack my room and do housework... -_-... i in this kind of condition still can do.. i think i crazy le.. haha...

yesterday went to work at 2.. haha... yesterday de work.. feel a bit stress up when doing it.. coz like very important de.. cannot make any mistakes.. if not very troublesome.. but overrall.. it was still not bad..

and oh ya.. there is this guy at my workplace ar..he very funny de lor..

him: " where is your "S" huh??
me: " here lor.."
mr khoo: " her ass on the chair la.."
all of us: * burst out laughing..*

..... what he mean where are all the letter " S"... haha.. very stupid right??? he still got a lot of stupid stuff lor.. everytime take sweets from us..

him: " what is this huh?? " * pointing to the sweets on the table*
me : " sweets lor.. "
him: " can i take one?? "

he always ask " what is this huh? " i feel like punching him sia.. is so so OBVIOUS is a packet of sweets la.. cannot tahan.. that time i was eating a japanese tibits.. i very hungry coz i didn eat lunch.. all thanks to bernie's chocolate bread.. i was sharing with bernie and ky.. and that guy asked if it is nice.. i said ya... very nice.. haha... and i turned away and started laughing.. haha..
ky typed a msg to me saying that i must know how to zuo ren.. the moment i read finished, i immediately said a very loud NO.. haha.. all of us started laughing again.. ok, we are very bad.. but cant help laughing...

look like prison??? lol...

yesterday met ling feng they all. coz they went sentosa.. *i want to go!!*
went to aijisen and eat.. but then, i only ate side dish.. coz before that, i too hungry and bernie and me went to long john silver and eat.. yummy!! haha..

my prawn mayo..hehe..

ling feng and me..

sorry.. calvin.. today suppose to meet u but i not feeling well.. next time go out with u again.. ok?? I' m sorry..

2006-09-29T11:07:00.000+08:00

Today.....

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who cant speak
Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion
Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean orsweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet
And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished theyhad your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemninganother
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer toone maker
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and stillaround

Life is a gift
Live it...Enjoy it...Celebrate it...And fulfill it..

THE ONE FLAW IN WOMEN

By the time the Lord made woman, he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart-and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."

"But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate." The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.

"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

2006-09-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

just came back from dinner..

wonder is it dinner or supper??

haha.. anyway, had chicken grilled foldover.. yummy..hehe..

finally saw marianne le.. long time didn see her le.. but i didn see ling feng for a longer time.. miss her..

no no no.. my frens cannot have depression.. depression sucks.. i am getting out of there le.. half way out of that stupid fucking well of depression.. and my frens like getting it.. no no no..

to lay meng..
try to be happy.. find stuffs to make u happy.. must think on the bright side.. u can be sad and down.. but u must tell yourself.. you must get back to yourself again.. is tough but once u get out of that depression, u will be a happier person..

marianne..
u cant go back to depression ar.. coz i feel that is scary for u to go back again..
hmm.. don worry abt me.. coz i am getting better as u say.. if i drop down into the deep hole again, i will tell u de... abt my other stuffs, hmm.. don bother le la.. u seem more affected by it than me.. haha.. relax la...

hmm.. everything will be fine after saying everything out.. haha.. feel better.. like just now at mac there.. haha..

just to tell the both of you..just tell yourself.. everything happens for a reason.. everything in life is inter-link de..
without this happening, you will not have what you have now..
with this happening, you will learn a lesson in life..

=)

2006-09-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

so hungry and tired now!!! haven had my dinner.. coz waiting for marianne to acc me.. long time didn see her le.. only 5 days.. but it seems long.. coz last week everyday see her.. haha..

my work start on monday.. overrall quite fun.. know bernie's fren.. forgot his name le.. haha..
sorry..
mr khoo, karen and one more.. but i don noe how to spell her name.. are in charge of us.. they are very nice to us de.. even if we do wrong stuffs, they won scold de.. just tell us what is wrong with the stuff that we did.. and we improved from there.. yeah..

handling all those paper stuff makes my hands so dry.. coz i keep going to the washroom and wash my hands.. some of the papers are carbon copy.. so when we touch and if we want to eat something, we need to wash our hands before we can eat.. and there is a lot of paper cuts on my hand!! wonder why the guys don have...

everytime we leave, we would say we are going to leave the prison le.. haha.. know why?? coz there like prison like that.. maybe i should take a photo of it.. and everytime we reach there.. we would say we are back at the prison again.. and started saying what crimes we committed that why ended back here again.. haha.. but this " prison" has nice ppl.. and the food in tiong bahru not bad.. haha..

imagine yourself in prison, then those convicts started asking you why u ended up here.. those convicts are either murderers, rapists.. started asking you why u ended up here..
and this is how you answered..
" oh, coz i abuse cats.."
this stupid thing came out of bernie's mouth..

lol.. this must be laughing out loud.. surrounding you are all murderers, rapists.. and u abuse cats, ended up in prison.. it sounded stupid to them.. haha.. so conclusion, don abuse cats or pets!!

tml going to work again... but i don have that kind of feeling of not going.. is actually quite fun.. coz can talk to them.. then hear mr khoo and karen gossip.. haha.. mr khoo asked me go find sugar daddy.. coz we were saying after our education , what are we going to do.. then the three of us don noe what is the direction that we are going.. so bernie said, " find sugar mummy.." haha.. siao.. nobody wants him also.. haha.. joking la.. so mr khoo turned to me," he find sugar mummy, then u go find sugar daddy la.." i was like " ..... -_- " haha.. and we talked a lot of stuff.. very funny..

update finish le.. coz i cant rmb what i did do... haha..someone force me to update de.. so enjoy reading !!! =)

2006-09-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

i finally cleaned my room!!! never knew that my room got so many stuff.. i practically throw everything out.. haha.. cleared my whole drawer.. can u believe i throw away every single stuff in my drawer?? haha.. and my table is clear.. i packed my papers.. my notes are one stack.. my books all nicely in the cupboard.. so clean now my room...hehe..

but i haven pack finsh.. i still need to buy stationary holder.. coz i throw away mine.. lol... i hate cleaning.. coz dust everywhere.. and i will have rashes after that... hai..

after cleaning my room, i help my sis wrapped her stuff.. my mom asked me to wrap like a sweet like that.. so i wrapped like a sweet lor.. and guess what she says??

mom: hai yo.. *turn to my sis* see, your sister wrapped until like that...
me: u say wrapped into a sweet mah..
mom: u wrap until like that, u expect your sis to give to her husband meh??
me: * thinking of that scenario* busrt out laughing..

not only i laugh, my mom and sis also laughed.. haha.. but is really very funny.. haha.. but is my mom asked me to wrap like that de.. she should know that her daughter don wrap this kind of thing de..haha..

had a chat with marianne just now.. lol.. is so fun!!! our conversation really really very fun.. keep laughing.. esp the 3 out of 5 pointers girl.. lol..

we are talking abt guys and suddenly i said this..
me: i take away your PE then you know ... *pretending i am talking to a guy*
us: *laughters*

haha.. it sounds very censored right??? but don anyhow think.. is perfectly straight de.. haha..
and still got one more.. the "hello??!!" haha.. marianne should know what am i talking abt... that one is a classic.. lol

tml going to work le.. but i am still blogging here.. i cant get to sleep at all.. think i too used to sleep late.. haha.. msut change le!!

i am in the room, getting ready to go out and buy ice cream.. when i got out of my room, my sis said this...

sis: go buy ice cream leh.. i feel like eating.. buy nice nice de hor..

i was so shocked coz i didn tell her that i was going to buy ice cream..
at that moment, both of us have this craving for ice cream..
seems like both of us got this connection.. something that tie us together..
like we can read each other' mind..

2006-09-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

aaa!!! i ate wasabi flavoured de chips just now.. the taste is so... eee.. haha.. i wonder why my sis buy the chips.. i should have open the other packet.. my sis called me a greedy pig when i ask her can eat a not... haha.. i still can smell the wasabi until now lor!!

suppose to pack and clean my room today.. but lazy and very tired.. coz watch grey's anatomy with my sis until 4 am in the morning.. and she woke up earlier than me.. i wonder she won be tired de meh???

tml, no matter what must pack le.. coz from monday to friday not free..if not, my mom will start nagging at me.. haha..

2006-09-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

me and my mummy!!

see how different we are last time?? esp me.. haha..
miss my long hair..

but i still like my hair now!!

act cute!! haha.. she always take slanted one de leh..

hmm.. this photo remind me of some stuff..

2006-09-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

*pissed off*

i don like to wait for people.. ok, i know i am late also.. and i am not always on time.. but why am i usually waiting for people????? if meet at 3, and my fren is late for 15 mins, i can still understand.. but if 2.50 pm, my fren is still at home or someone else, i would blow off my top.. unless u give me a good reason or early call to tell me u will be late.. june would have known this by now.. coz she got scolding from me before..

ok, enough of all this complaining..
today went out with shi hui.. yeah!! finally saw her.. feel like wearing uniform when i saw her.. long time didn wear le and i miss the feeling.. went MS with her.. she bought her sunglasses.. and i bought my belt.. finally!!! she still haven changed a bit.. when she talked abt martin, haha.. she is so agitated lor.. very funny..

something happened to us today..at raffles city.. we both talking very happily.. abt guys.. haha.. yup, the topic girls always talked abt.. suddenly, this elderly used his walking stick to separate the two of us... and he made a sound.. hmm.. hard to describe the sound.. but it is very scary!! both of us got a big shock!! we tot he was some kind of pervert.. haha.. after 10 mins, my heart is still pumping very fast..

i told her: " i feel as if , at any moment, i am going to have heart attack.."

haha.. we went to Marks and Spencer..i loved that place.. don noe why.. when i was looking around, she made this comment.

Shi hui : " i don't think my jc frens would come here de.."

when i heard that, i was like.. hmm.. it seems that both of your characters are very similar.. or our group of frens.. that why we all attract one another.. =)
both of our thinking and fashion taste is almost the same.. i still feel close to her.. even if i don contact her for long.. both of us come very far in this friendship..

i remember the first time we quarrel.. we said nasty things to each other.. how we really felt abt each other.. we both cried.. coz is very hurting.. but these brought us closer.. these taught us to be honest, be tactful of how we say stuff to others.. how to say out what we think by trying to minimize the hurt.. the beginning of it was tough.. coz it hurts to hear the truth..but no one is perfect.. till now, we are still good frens.. it definitely makes us closer now..

i recalled what shawn told me that day.. he told me when he saw our group in swensen.. he said that it was cool.. coz we still have gathering.. everyone was happy.. but.. i feel left out.. totally.. i am still in contact with my frens there.. but seriously, i don noe know what is going on in their life..as in their problems.. their stuffs.. is always someone else who told me abt it.. sometimes, i don even know what to talk to them abt...

this kind of feeling is so awful.. and really awful.. is just like u are sitting at the side.. and watching the rest of them having fun... physically there but not there..
hmm.. but closeness cant be forced de.. so just hope everyone stay happy can le!!
=)

To shi hui,
Your jc frens match make u with thay guy, robert.. haha.. not good looking de lor..
last time during sec school, we match make you with that Shi kai.. he more good looking right??
100 times better than robert.. haha..

2006-09-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

woke up at 1.36 pm today.. i tot i saw the time wrongly.. very long didn wake up so late le.. watched my grey's anatomy.. i realise is the second last disc so i am taking my own sweet time to watch.. hehe.. around 2 plus, prepare my ingredients to cook.. these few days got the sudden urge to cook.. haha..

yeah!! cooked pasta again.. but it taste different from what i cook last night.. both very nice.. today my dad cook with me!!! remind me of last time when he first taught me how to cook.. hmm.. my dad taught me how to swim.. cook.. and save money.. haha.. save money must ask someone.. coz he knows.. and we had fun doing that.. well, is the past already..

change blog skin again.. i loved this blogskin.. at first don really want to change de.. coz i liked the previous one also.. remind me of someone.. but everything has to go on.. and i have moved on le!! glad that i have moved on.. haha..

talked to shawn last night.. suddenly called me.. tot what happened sia.. haha.. he is afraid abt my depression.. don worry!! is getting better le.. soon, the depression will get out of my mind!!! hmm.. through this depression and all those stuffs that has began since june, i really really learnt a lot.. all these makes me a stronger person..
i am sure shawn learnt a lot too.. haha..

tml meeting my mummy, shi hui.. hope can meet her coz i miss her a lot!!! i want to see her!! i want to hug her the moment i see her!! want to take a lot of photos with her!!! then after that, going for dinner with the lead camp committee.. yeah!!

2006-09-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

went out with marianne today.. haha.. everyday see her sia.. we went to great world city for job interview.. .. but these two don-have-any-directions-sense girl don noe how to go.. *peng* only realise when we are on the train.. haha.. lucky i called my sis and ask..

we are not stupid ok??? we just didn go before.. now we know le.. haha..

the interview was ok.. the interviwer, simon, a funny guy.. haha... hope can get the job..
going to work next week.. until 15 oct.. haha.. so won be free.. calvin, my master complain to me that to ask me out is just so hard.. haha.. i think is going to be even harder le.. coz working le..

today i did something i didn do for a very very long time. and that is cooking!! i cooked my own dinner today... and is my fav.. pasta as my dinner.. haha.. yeah!! i am so happy.. and it still turns out nice.. even better than last time... but don noe why, my mom likes to disturb me when i am cooking.. haha..

scare your daughter can't cook ar? she can cook de ok?? haha..

know what my mom told me??

Mom:u likes to decorate rite?? decorate the house for me..
me: decorate for what?? * going to renovate the whole house ar?*
Mom: 1 oct, when they come then nice mah..
me: *peng* huh?? decorate for??
Mom: your sis's wedding coming mah.. on the 1 oct and her wedding that day, u decorate the house la.. like those ppl when they having birthday party.. they will put " Happy Birthday" sign in the living room..
me: *faints* orh.. ok..

no choice but to agree.. i was thinking, ppl having birthday party put that sign.. then my sis wedding put what?? can't possibly put " Happy Wedding!!!"
.... haha.. i was laughing like hell when that thought came to my mind.. so stupid lor..
but i am creative.. i will think of something out de..

*off to thinking*

The world needs LOVE, right???

2006-09-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

my mom just told me that there will be a buffet on 1 oct!!! yeah!! at my house!! all my relatives, my dad's and mom's side all coming.. hmm.. it will be weird.. haha.. my mom ordered me to clean my room.. coz obviously, and i don noe why, people just like to go and take a look at my room.. just coz i slept in master bedroom.. well, no big deal mah.. those people that look at my room also slept in master bedroom.. don understand them.. haha..

going to suntec when there is IMF is so troublesome.. must walk one BIG round.. both marianne and me are blur and nearly lost.. haha.. but lucky, the clever us found our way there.. first time, there is not so many people in suntec and MS.. so shiok.. haha..

i am so tired now.. but i don want to sleep coz i am watching Grey's Anatomy.. is so so nice!!! love it.. haha.. okok, i am going back to my beloved television.. Ciao..

2006-09-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

well, just blog to vent my frustration..

i cant believe i met a guy that is so so so idiot?? ( no words to describe to him at all)

no guts.

really no words to describe..

forget abt it man..

lol...

anyway, now in sch..*shakes head* haha...

People are always in denial.. is just that whether people will admit a not..

Do what you can when you can, and why you can.

oh man, i love this phrase..

omg, june and wen long are talking abt icewine.. hmm.. i want!!! haha..
wenlong just came back from bangkok.. bought earrings for us!! got 2 pairs.. yeah!! thanks!!

Perfect outisde, shattered inside.

2006-09-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

i am addicted to grey's anatomy.. lol

being watching whole day since 1 plus..

my sis reached home around 12 plus.. " huh? u still watching ar?"

haha.. cant help it.. coz is a nice show!!

i feel that my stomach is like getting weaker..

hai.. hope it can get well soon..

or maybe i should get a full body check up..

hmm..

2006-09-17T11:52:00.000+08:00

i love my family!! they are so funny.. esp evelyn jie jie( not my real jie).. called her jie jie coz we same rank in the family line. we are all ah yi.. so i am the smallest ah yi.. my sis bf fetched us to evelyn jie jie house yesterday for dinner.. i hungry until full already.. haha..

my jie jie keep asking my sis bf a lot of questions until jeffery kor kor( which is another jie de husband, confusing hor.. ) said that next time print out interview form then no need to ask questions.. haha.. we all laughing like siao.. they all said my dad don even ask.. she asked so many questions.. lol.. my mom said she represent the Heng family.. haha..

i think they going malaysia again.. coz they ask mi want to go during nov a not.. i immediately say yes.. haha.. they said go mega mall!!! ahh! i want to go.. they said can put me there no need to come back.. coz i will shop until siao..haha..

hmm.. sorry my mummy.. didn go for your bbq.. but will make it up to you... we go out and celebrate and have fun whole day..ok? love ya.. =)

2006-09-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

hmm.. woke up by june call.. asking me abt the hady coming to tp thingy.. tot she wanted to go.. in the end, she called and tell me she don want le.. coz her class end 12.30.. then is raining.. so don feel like going.. seriously, at that time of point, i was angry.. nah, nvm. is over le..

on the way to sch, elaine called me.. she said she wait for me at the mushroom there.. once i reached there, omg.. so many ppl waiting for me.. haha.. sorry guys.. i didn know..

coz of the rain, it changed to audi 1.. a big poster of hady was on the stage.. after that, we saw a banner of hady also.. omg, need to be so kua zhang meh?? i feel so awakard for jonathan... when they arrived, the samba ppl started playing then got cheer leading also.. hai yo.. i was like," need to do until like that meh??" haha..

before they arrived, the guys keep disturbing elaine.. and u know in turn what she did?? she pinch them and bit them.. but she only bit yong tian.. haha.. poor yong tian.. his finger swollen and the teeth mark very obvious.. haha.. who ask u all bully her huh??? and oh ya.. i became their victim.. why?? coz yeow sheng was disturbing and he was holding a camera.. suddenly the whole camera hit my head.. i was like so shocked lor!! they both fighting.. none of them hurt but me.. haha..

saw my lead camp mates.. i was so happy!! took a lot of photos with them.. everyone is so bonded !! miss that camp so much.. and wak a lot.. but nvm, 22 sept, organising committe going to meet up for dinner!!

i learn something new today.. haha..
the elder brother has to take care of his younger brothers.. do you know that the youngest brother has to take care of his OWN younger brother also?? that why elder brother very tiring de... has to take care of his younger brothers and his OWN younger brother..
haha.. * think dirty and u will understand* =p

2006-09-14T19:11:00.000+08:00

my another good fren of mine leaving tml for studies le.. and that's baldwin... once he leaves, nobody will listen to me talking crap.. haha.. then my jazz pub also.. must wait 9 months later when he comes back..

to baldwin,
hey hey, i am going to flood your mail every week.. muahaha.. jk la.. don miss me crying over the phone... haha.. and don worry abt me.. i will be fine, strong and smile.. still got marianne they all.. u take caretoo... and when u come back, buy stuff for marianne and me hor!!! we want nice nice de stuff!!!!! and photos too please.. haha.. sorry cant send u off.. coz your flight too early le.. i am still sleeping at that time.. haha..

2006-09-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

got back my results le.. no supp paper!!! yeah!! but my gpa drop.. hai..
as usual, only got one A.. but this A really shocked me.. not what i expect to get for this subject de.. my EAUD got A!!! i was like huh?? coz i didn go for term test and i managed to get A.. REFM got B+.. expect myself to get A but didn... hai.. a bit disappointed.. but nvm.. no supp paper can le.. the rest get C ot C+.. hai.. that why pull down my gpa...

oct 14 is my sis's wedding.. very fast hor?? one more month only.. she been coming home very early nowadays.. miss her a lot.. i think after she married, i will keep sms her.. haha.. will miss her and the dogs a lot.. suddenly she and the dogs not around.. very weird lor.. hai.. my dad just now discussing wedding stuff with my relatives.. i not used to it also.. hmm.. is like getting nearer le..

now watching tokyo juliet.. quite nice!! the guy inside not bad looking leh.. haha.. his body very nice..my eyes glued to my laptop le.. haha..

2006-09-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

i don want to stay in singapore..

i want to go overseas for holidays..

i am suffering all alone..

those pain.. those memories keep hitting me like big waves..

i tried to keep it under wrap.. but i cant keep it for long..

at least when i am overseas, there are no memories over there...

2006-09-12T13:26:00.000+08:00

welcome me back!!! haha.. back from genting le.. who says genting is only for casino?? i prove u wrong!!! i bought a lot of stuffs.. 1 body scrub, 3 tops, 1 jacket, 3 shorts, 1 skirt.. and my famous amos cookies.. and a lot of tibits!!! i shop for 3 days.. non stop de.. even my aunt ask me," got so many things to buy ar u.. " everyday i will have new stuff on my hand de.. haha.. my aunt says i can go tell my other relatives that genting is not for gambling de!! haha..

sat flying coaster with my cousin!! nice!! 360 degree.. hehe.. if my sis went with us, we would have sat even more exciting de rides.. but even if she went, she also cannot play.. haha.. my cousin taught me how to play pool.. haha.. know how to play le.. but my aiming... hai.. cannot make it at all.. haha.. whole group went to ktv for the dinner.. is only RM 12 per person leh.. so cheap lor.. but i think only my uncle, darren(my cousin) and me made full use of the money.. why?? coz we sang the most.. haha.. mostly is the three of us singing non stop.. and oh ya.. at the ktv, i nearly lost my hp.. lucky the staff returned me.. thanks!!

watched Little Man in genting.. for RM 10... so cheap rite??.. we got the front row.. my uncle say if u all feel uncomfortable watching, then come out.. is only RM 10.. haha.. but my cousins and me sat throughout.. nice show!!! we bought popcorn combo.. 2 sets.. guess how much??? RM 9 for 2 sets!! so cheap can.. cheaper than watching in singapore..

my cousins they all going to new zealand on nov 29.. my aunt ask me want to go a not.. i want to go!!! 7 days, $1000plus.. but my dad don allow..hai..

yesterday went out with my kor, wei wen.. haha.. bought stuff again.. a bag!! but i not enough money.. so kor pay for me first.. then bought masks also.. kor choose for me de.. next time buy this kind of stuff must ask him along.. haha.. he like a girl like that leh.. he himself also admit.. he says he thinks he is the only guy that will go inside sasa and buy stuff.. haha..

later going to tm.. think i will spend money again.. haha. i told kor yesterday i feel like i am in malaysia.. spend money don really think.. all the money like in RM.. opps. cannot like that liao.. now in singapore.. must CONTROL!!! haha..

my uncle singing!!

me in ktv.. i look so tired.. coz i only slept 5 hours the previous day. didn sleep well on the way to genting..

my turn to sing.. =p

alone in hotel room.. the kids went theme park.. adults casino.. my cousin sleeping in the other room..

the view from my room..

2006-09-07T20:03:00.000+08:00

yeah!! going to genting tml!! although there might be ppl that i don noe.. but i still very happy!!
but lazy to pack bag..

just came back from l.e.a.d camp.. it was very fun!! but really very tiring.. we all managed not to sleep for 24 hours.. yeah!!! although there is not many ppl join.. but this is better than the orientation!!

my group is C and the name for their group is columbus.. but there is a disadvantage coz there is only 3 of them in the group.. tnhe rest got 4 per group..
first day, during the trouble hunting, i lost the envelope.. i am so guilty abt it.. coz i went back to find and they had to wait for me.. it is a campus wide games so pratically every one is running around.. but our group walked slowly.. haha.. coz nic is injured...

at night, we went for pasir ris.. omg.. it is so far.. walked until there can die liao.. but lucky max and i keep entertaining each other on the way.. haha.. talked a lot of crap.. when we reached there, is around 3 plus.. then eat supper.. the food cold cold le.. that time don feel like eating, but feel like sleeping.. but i managed to sleep for a while..

4 am, we started our games.. oh man!! i hate the order of the games.. i had to go to the playground there..then go to the mangrove swamp.. oh my god, one at each end.. the walking time already taken up a lot of time..and our energy.. but our group managed to do it..yeah!!!

on the way back, nic, marianne, jing yao and me took cab back..nic injured that why he cannot really walked.. marianne and me both cannot tahan le.. i nearly fell asleep while walking.. *realise that i very pig* haha.. once we reached sch, both of us faster bath faster go sleep..

everything went quite well.. all those who joined also agreed.. and they are so hyper.. haha.. and i think they have more energy than me.. muahah..

tuesday night outside mangrove swamp.. when all the main com went to try out all the games..

jason, shaun, me

XOR!!!

forming the word "LEAD"
i not extra hor.. i UNDERLINE the words..haha..

my group, Columbus..

2006-09-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

i want to go genting!!!!

i told my dad i will not be at home from tuesday to saturday.. and u know what he told me?? he told me that he might be away from singapore from friday to sunday..

me: where are you going?
dad: going genting..
me: i also want to go!!
dad: i tot u got sch??
me: no la, camp only.. that camp i can don go de.. i want to go genting..
dad: then u will be alone if everyone of us go casino.. darren not going leh.. only those small kids going...
me: nvm la.. i can go shop alone..
dad: then u have to share bed with your aunt..
me: nvm la.. then share lor..
dad: or nov then go la..
me: don want!!!! nov got sch!! i want to go..

haha.. i die also want to go.. i can go shopping alone de lor.. that time also like that.. although my cousin, darren got acc me.. but now, nvm la.. i can shop on my own!!! haha..

wed got camp le!!! 24 hours de!! hehe.. excited excited.. boo!!! tml going sch stay.. after l.e.a.d camp, is e.e.o camp... wonder how marianne and i going to tahan.. but if going to genting, i won be going to e.e.o camp le.. muahaha.. *pray hard can go genting* haven pack my bag.. coz i don noe what to pack.. very lost now..

went to ECP today!!! with marianne.. haha.. both of us are crazy..went to buy cards and started playing.. from1 to 4.. power hor?? we keep asking questions..she everytime got yes de answer de leh.. i started complaining that i everytime tio no..nv tio yes de.. as i was playing, there was a bunch of kids behind us.. they very nosiy lor.. and i made this comment, " hai, i doing fortune telling now, shhhh..later not accurate..." haha.. ok, i admit i am crazy..

both of us took the wrong bus on the way home.. not really wrong bus.. we tot that 31 was a loop bus.. but lucky we faster alight if not we will go to tpy.. haha.. both of us blur like sotong.. but i more sotong!!! bleah...

so happy today!!! =)

2006-09-03T12:01:00.000+08:00

i miss my sister..

=(

come back early, ok??

2006-09-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

today is not a good day nor a bad day for me.. hai.. when i woke up, i realise that i am going to fall sick soon.. when talking to my sis, my voice totally changed and she couldnt hear me also.. argh!! i don want to fall sick.. i hate it!!!

quarrel with my mom just now.. so irritated by her.. explain to her also no use.. and the worse thing is she came to my room.. and throw my stuffs on the floor!!! ok, she may want to use the sewing machine and some of my stuff is there.. BUT, there is no need for u to throw my stuff on the floor, ok???? this is not the fisrt time that u treat me like that le..

i cried and cried.. called ling feng.. cried until i couldn talk properly..from our conversation, she knew i didn eat from the whole day le.. she came down to my house to buy dinner for me.. thanks girl.. and jason too..

now helping calvin to find song.. very hard to find lor..he don know what is the song title.. only know that is sang by f.i.r.. hai yo.. how i know what song u want??? but nvm, i will find for u de..
haha...

i want to watch wei xiao pasta.. but is until ep 7 only.. hai.. must wait until next week then got ep 8.. so long.... now mi finsing other dramas to watch.. hehe.. i love my laptop!!!

2006-09-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

boo!!! haha.. no need to study le!!! haha.. suddenly feel so "light"... haha

look at how messy the table is when marianne and I study.. haha.. is so messy!!! the whole table so occupied by us.. haha.. but no more messy table le!!!

no more exams.. mean i will be watching you tube more.. now watching smile pasta.. wei xiao pasta.. watch le feel like eating pasta.. hehe.. but yesterday at swensens ate le.. but not enough for me.. sorry guys for last night.. i'm sorry..

today too hungry le.. so ask my dad to buy chicken cutlet rice for me.. but then.. i don like to eat le.. don noe why.. nowadays when i see or eat chicken, i will don feel like eating.. or feel very eeeee... haha.. totally no appetite to eat.. which is a good thing!! haha.. now i am loved my salad.. if my mom sees me eating salad, she will say i siao..haha..

i want to go shopping!!! but now currently no money.. hai.. must wait until next month.. hmm..nvm, i can tahan until then de.. haha..

back to my you tube le!!

2006-08-31T17:02:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! exams finally finished!!! yeah!!! congrats to everyone!!!

so tired.. but my chances of taking supp paper are very high also... haha.. hope i can pass all..

time to enjoy!!!

=)

2006-08-31T05:03:00.000+08:00

refm paper was okay.. haha.. went out early and saw mr. phua.. "paper very easy is it?" the first question he asked when he saw me.. haha.. during the paper, we were requested to sketch(which i don like at all!!).. mr phua stand besdie wen long and ask him, " drawing balloons ar?" haha... i was laughing like hell when wen long told me.. hmm.. going to miss mr phua teaching us.. although he always pick on me...

look at the time now... is 4.59am in the morning.. and i am still awake.. i am so hardworking!! mugging now with marianne now..haha.. both of us want to sleep liao... but i cant get anything into my head.. i am not prepared for later de paper.. surely supp paper liao... also, not in the mood to study.. hai.. missing someone now.. why in the sports complex they get to see him de??? but i didn.. hai.. i was behind him when he went out.. but i didn see him also!! only wen long saw.. wen long always see him de leh.. hai..

think faster get back to my studies liao.. haha.. if not later de ppl totally don noe how to do..

2006-08-30T10:12:00.000+08:00

suppose to study now de.. but what am i doing instead of studying.. haha.. seriously, i really no mood to study for this paper.. all my worries on tml's paper which is tbp.. think i really no need to sleep.. hai..

last night, one of my fren gave me a bag of cookies.. hmm.. thnaks leh..
suddenly, i miss mr. w a lot.. hai..

think i better get back to studying liao.. =p

2006-08-29T20:31:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today paper is either i pass or fail.. i don noe how to do plc.. don noe why i didn go for lecture last time.. haha.. now blame myself also no use.. can only depends on my theory liao..

after paper went home straight.. intend to sleep de.. but just as i known on my way home, i know i won sleep de.. today i got to know something abt my dad!! guess what i hear when i reach home?? my dad listening to english songs leh!! that time was classical music.. oh my god, i was so shocked!!!

switch on my lappy once i reach home and online le.. knew i won sleep de.. my sis ask me go mos burger to have our dinner!! but manage to sleep a while for 10 mins b4 going out.. hehe..as usual, i ws late.. hehe... had ebi rice burger.. yummy!! so nice.. went ntuc after that to buy stuff.. she having cravings.. haha...

today i got to know that my uncle's neighbour passed away.. i was so shocked lor.. coz he like not sick or whatever de leh.. then my dad told me that after my uncle passed away not long ago, his neighbour had a stroke.. so scary leh!! feeling a bit down now.. but cannot let it affect my studies!!

going to study le.. bye!!!!

2006-08-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

Sitting alone in the corner of my room
I suddenly saw us
I saw you carrying me
I saw you hugging
And crying with me
I saw the happines on our face after that
You were there for me
No matter what.

Tears came flowing
As if it can never been turned off
I never felt like this before
The more i cried,
The more pain i felt
I couldn't stop crying
I wanted to share my happiness
And most importantly,
my sadness
However, i couldn't do so now.

I feel so lonely at night
Thinking,
Where are you?
How are you doing?
Are you happy?

When i couldn't sleep at night,
I imagine you holding my hand to sleep
Just like what you always did.

2006-08-28T12:02:00.000+08:00

aaa!!! i told everyone my paper at 2.30pm.. but i finished my paper le!! look at the time now.. is 12pm!! haha.. i didn check my timing for the paper.. is actually 9.30am.. thank you june for waking me up.. but i was stress up at that momnet.. realise that i didn study for calculations at all!! but lucky june taught me over the phone.. hehe.. whole morning is so havco lor.. haha.. but yeah!! left 3 papers now..

hmm.. feeling very emo now.. coz just wrote finish a short story.. teared when i wrote it.. i don feel like ending the story at all de.. but no matter how long or how short is the story.. it must have an ending.. the most got part 2 only lor.. haha..

kkz, gtg now.. running errand for my sis.. help her educate daddy!!! haha.. she damn troublesome la.. next time ask her to treat me!!! jie, i want famous amos cookies!! hehe..

2006-08-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

i don want to cry anymore le...

you don even know when i am crying..

where are you??

i lost you in a crowd..

cant find you back anymore..

2006-08-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

just came back.. so tired but fun today!!

had my first paper, eaud today.. very very nervous.. coz of this, i lost 28 marks!!! the 12 marks actually i know how to do de.. but i too nervous le.. cannot calm down at all.. and it causes me to forget how to do.. hai.. the last 16 marks.. so irritating!! i do correctly de.. but i went to cancel off the correct ans.. hai.. stupid me..

after eaud, thinking should be able to pass overall.. then suddenly i rmb my bcs.. omg.. my mood went straight down.. i am very very scare that my bcs will get zero... coz that fucking idiot teacher accused me of not doing my project... argh!!! plc program stands 40 marks out of 100.. hai.. i have to pass well. hope she don give me zero for my project..

after that, wanted to go jogging de.. BUT, the gym a lot of ppl.. hai.. i want to jog one leh.. in the end, went swimming with marianne they all.. i first time go swimming pool didn swim.. is not that i don noe how to swim hor.. is i don have goggles.. haha.. then soak inside the water with tiffany and wei shan.. marianne and wen long went ahead and swim..
actually around us got a lot of ppl de.. but slowly, we noticed they started to go to other side.. think coz we too noisy le.. we keep laughing non stop.. we inside for 1 hour.. and we laughed for 1 hour.. power hor us?? the ppl inside are just so interesting.. haha..

went to have subway!!! one of my fav.. hehe.. very very full now.. until i want to sleep le.. but cannot.. want to study tbp later.. have to jia you for other paper.. suddenly realise all my papers a lot of theory and calculations.. but i can do it de!! =)

2006-08-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

muhaha.. just reach home.. thanks baldwin for fulfilling your promise... although it took months.. haha.. well, he drove me to bedok jetty to destress myself.. so nice and relaxing!! haha.. and thanks for the dinner.. next time drive me to city area hor.. expressway!! haha..

today only study eaud.. omg.. all calculations i manage to understand but a bit like not clear.. left theory for eaud.. still need to go through again.. hai.. i am scare what the questions sia.. wait i blur blur and don understand again.. =p.. today didn study tbp.. hai.. think friday need to touch on tbp le.. jia you jeslyn!! =p

2006-08-23T13:23:00.000+08:00

i feel so unwell now after vomitting last night.. keep having the feeling that i am going to vomit.. it just makes me feel even more awful..

these few days i keep listening to BBmak- Ghost of you and me.. long time didn listen le.. and now it has stuck inside my head.. haha.. instead of having those calculations and theory in my brain, this song is in my brain.. lol..
today have to study eaud and tbp!!! die also must study.. esp eaud.. i need to pass all my subjects..

Corinthians 13:4

Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud;
Love is not ill- manneredor selfish or irritable;
Love does not keep a record of wrongs;
Love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth.
Love never gives up; and its faith, hope,
and patience never fail.
Love is eternal.

i don't want a minute of happines and long term suffering..
i want a lifetime of happines and a minute of pain and suffering..

i didn mean to fall in love with you.

2006-08-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

i think i am those kind of person that can only study at last min de.. i keep slacking and studying.. slacking and study.. haha.. but at least i got study..

just vomitted.. feel better after vomitting.. images of that day suddenly came to my mind.. it makes mi miss him even more..

hai.. going to sleep le.. tml going to chiong for my eaud.. this paper must do well..tml i going to ask a lot of questions!!! muhaha.. wen long, hope you come sch tml!! and thanks for your encouragement!!

i love all my frens!!! =)

2006-08-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

i am so touched by my group of friends.. everyone of them been telling me they will catch me when i fall.. not only my JD friends.. my poly frens too.. baldwin told me that he will too catch me when i fall.. june told me that i still got her.. i am really really very touched by them..

yesterday i just found out that, after 3 weeks, the sadness and hurt that i had.. it has always been buried below my heart.. it came up to the surface yesterday.. and once again, i broke down again..

girls, don apologise to me.. coz is not your fault.. is just the timing.. the timing is wrong.. just be happy.. but don be like me can le..
don worry, i will be ok and strong de.. =)

2006-08-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

i am so tired!! after studying.. today i did study!! bcs.. seriously, the stupid lecturer made mi lost interest in this subject.. but i am going to prove to her that i can make it!!! so irritated by her.. nvm.. don care abt her... later morning going to pack my room a while and study studying le..
friday going to have my first paper.. 25 aug.. hai.. then 28 to 31 all week having exams.. stress!! i can feel a bit now.. and i am having rashes again.. hai..

just now read my banana god's blog.. suddenly feel that why everyone is feeling this way.. why my frens and i all having problems at this period of time?? last week just found out my good fren aka mummy might be having depression.. then now calvin like that.. is like everyone been keeping things in their heart.. *applies to me too* but this also proves that we are all good frens.. coz we are all going through all these together..

so, my frens.. don give up!!!

2006-08-19T17:51:00.000+08:00

Love is simple,
yet - complicated-

Single but not - available-

Attached but still - searching-
for the one

Letting go doesn't mean not loving you
It means -Happiness-

Cry for all you want
Sadness and bitterness will be
-washed-
away after this

Believe in love
for it will
-come-
to you one day

Don't ever -deny-
your *feelings*
It will only make
-yourself-
suffer

feeling sian and taking a break from study... suddenly got all these feelings.. mostly from my frens and me... don't understand why guys like to confuse themselves so much??? in turn, they confuse the ladies.. then in the end, everyone is confused and suffering... but neither parties know abt it..

*love should be simple, not confusing*

2006-08-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

congrats to mi!!! i finish my pmngt and tbp.. and why i am so happy?? not coz i finish my projects.. coz i completed my tbp in 1 day. tbp, marianne and i didn even start until yesterday... yeah!! *claps* hehe..

today miss 2 persons a lot.. first, is someone la.. those who knows mi well, should know who.. everyday been saying i miss.. haha.. another one is my sister.. when i think that she is not going to live with us 2 months later. i feel weird.. is like another person leaving me like that.. like... hai.. but nvm, still can go visit her.. hehe..

going to start studying le.. 5 papers and so much to study!! i am scare of my eaud and bcs.. esp eaud.. i have to score well coz didn go for term test.. but i don even know what the subject is abt.. but if i work hard, He will help me de.. He will always be by my side.. never leave me alone.. just like that time like that..

2006-08-17T12:23:00.000+08:00

ahhh!!! i am so pissed off with my thumb drive now!!! it cannot open at all!!! and my pmngt project inside!! wa lao.. tml have to pass up liao.. then u suddenly like that.. i feel like throwing it onto the floor.. tot today can finish and print out. but now.... hai.. some more got songs inside.. hai.. my sis sure scold me de.. how how how???? lucky i send belle the program liao.. but the report.. hai.. have to re-type again.. wa lao.. why today so unlucky de?? why everytime do project sure got something go wrong de!!!! argh!!!

2006-08-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

argh!! first lesson i was already pissed off by that bcs lecturer.. argh!!! spoil my day!!!! she said i didn do my project.. coz i wasnt able to do the program that she ask mi to do.. what the hell!!! what i didn do.. i got do lor!!! the word "F***" not enough for mi to use at all!!! i am still boiling now lor.. spoil my mood for the jap role play also!!! i am going to prove to u that i can pass my bcs!!!

before role play, something happen that makes me very happy. hehe...role play today was ok.. but i feel that my lines very little and today i forgot to say one line!!! after finish everything then i rmb!!! hai yo!! nvm la.. over le.. enjoy myself now..

tml going to chiong finish my tbp assignment in one day.. plus report.. wish me luck.. pmngt also going to finish le.. yeah!!! finally!! but i feel myself very slack and didn really give in my best for every project..

calvin!! i want my bean bag!! not those 5 stones de.. is those big bean bag!!! i don care.. u are going to buy for me.. my birthday present!!! but is put at your house de. you say will buy for me de.. i will be waiting for my bean bag!!!

thanks for taking the initiative.. =)

2006-08-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

saw this article from a forum..

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.

The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow a person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you had to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting free from all bitterness, hatred and anger that keep in your heart.

Do not let bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may found peace by loving someone from a distance not expecting anything back in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough place for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we being to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship.

We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone that you love. What you need to learn is to accept their verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you want to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past had left with you.
Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it might be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

2006-08-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

i am so pissed off now!!! u want my report??? dream on!!! we already help u with your program le.. now u want our report.. ok, program is not we help u de.. is june help u de. but without us, june will help u a not?? june gives us face then help u de lor..

stop msging us to send you our report.. u don know how to do.. then we know meh?? we also don noe but we still do.. u ask us things/stuff, we will tell you.. but when we ask you, you say you don noe... everytime say don noe.. don noe don noe don noe.. don noe but u in director's list.. trying to lie to us lor..

she only accidentally touch the mouse.. you scolded her saying that later will hang the whole thing. hello??? anyone with common sense know that it won't lor.. u not even scolded her, but you pushed her also.. what kind of attitude are you showing?? you treat belle like this, u think we will want to help you meh?? last time when we doing project.. you, june and mi.. did you contribute anything a not? no lor.. is both june and mi doing.. sometimes next day need to pass up. i do until 2 plus in the morning, june do until 5 plus in the morning.. 9 plus both of us in sch le.. where are you?? u not with us when we doing all these.. during presentation also like that.. june and i keep talking... Q&A, u even more quiet.. didn ans.. is june and me who are answering.. we got the highest..but u didn contribute to us at all.. u don even deserve the marks lor!!!

this time round, you also don deserve the bcs marks that you got.. coz is june help you de!!! if not coz of june, would you have finished everything?? no, i don think so.. you would still be doing now!!!

i hope you get this into your head. stop your attitude now. don bully belle anymore le!! if u continue on like this, i tell you, nobody would care abt you de.

2006-08-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

was so surprised today. anyway, thanks for the 2 songs.

yesterday went to trim eyebrow..all the way to kovan. went to city hall. was a bit irritated coz a lot of ppl over there.. find that singaporeans getting very rude.. they pushed you, then walked very fast then suddenly stopped. hello?? there are ppl behind you.. hai yo.. cannot tahan them.

after went to bugis.. first time went to bugis around 7 plus, but there was not many ppl.. think everyone went to watch fireworks. buy jeans and ear rings. hehe.. so happy!! i love shopping!!!

hmm.. friday went to esc agm.. congrats to all!! did enjoy myself a bit...
i nearly cried out.. not becoz of that. coz my part time les, veline told mi something, " i will catch you when u fall." i was so touched..thanks girl.. she knows that i am not feeling really happy but was forcing myself to be.

photo time!

xing long, elaine, jason, marianne, me

me and jason. my smile looks so fake.

with baofa.

everyone's wearing black. haha.

black gang huh???

kumar + jeslyn = chocolate milkshake!!! =p

2006-08-11T00:25:00.000+08:00

i am so proud of marianne and me!! we did finish the first part of tbp assignment in just 30 to 45 mins.. but still got the second part which we need to design a building ourselves.. hmm.. we sure can de la! haha.. but today i very tired.. coz last night only slept for 1 to 2 hours..

finally do finish our bcs le!! thanks june for helping us out.. yeah!! then next week can present.. hope during presentation nth will go wrong.. and hope she don ask us on the spot do another program...

now left with only pmngt..faster finish and can pass up on monday le.. so exicted.. can clear all my project le..

tml is a busy day for me.. 12 to 2 got jap project.. prepare for my role play next wed.. then 2.30 got meeting for the L.E.A.D camp.. after that, rest a while, going for esc agm.. seems like tml quite packed for me.. coz morning need to go buy something..

saturday going out with shi hui and maybe marianne they all!! but before that, i am going to be very guai.. going back to sch to study in the morning.. hehe.. then after go out.. maybe can go see fireworks.. hehe.. i am crazy over fireworks..

to marianne:

girl, don think too much ar..

i now it feels very pain..

but it will be over soon..

at least still frens..

everything will be back to normal..

and

don cry alone.

coz it will makes you feel even more lonely..

don worry..

both of us will go through this together

and

back to ourselves de

have faith!!!

2006-08-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

today kena dragged to my cousin house by my mom.. didn regret going there.. hehe.. dinner was good... but guess what was my dinner?? is " red hot chicken" translate into chinese.. haha.. my hanyu pinyin not good de.. haha.. sorry.

when i first saw my bowl, i was like,"wow!" all red.. the chicken red, veg red, soup red, fishballs red and noodle also red.. haha.. the best part is i pour XO in.. my aunt pour for me a little bit.. i say not enough la.. pour more..but she still pour a bit.. in the end, i self service pour myself.. haha.. they all say later i drunk they don noe.. haha.. but i ate alot sia.. my aunt they all quite surprised that i like it.. coz all my cousins don eat de..

saw fireworks today!! again.. haha.. at my cousin house.. everytime the tv shows that there is fireworks, all of us will rush outside to see fireworks.. haha.. not only kids do that.. those adults play mahjong until half also run out.. haha.. i really like my cousin house sia.. like chalet like that.. so many dvd to watch.. nv run out of foods de.. tibits all over.. very cosy.. next time go there house camp la.. haha..

hai.. sian.. tml got tbp lab.. every thurs i drag myself go sch de..friday busy day for me also.. got jap project and meeting after that.. hai yo.. but saturday can go out with my beloved mummy and that is shi hui.. hope she can make it la!! yeah!!